Ever felt so alone...oh wells i was feeling so alone ytd..don't know why, maybe cuz my mama went to Macau and left me at home..heh..and my sister is not at home though my bro is at home, the feeling is not the same..
at least my sister is bringing me out tonight for dinner..wahahaaha

thursday is my last paper..woo!! for the semester i meant...the module is just not making sense..

on sat as i was walking to smu with good friends of mine. was chatting with one of them and she we were talking abt coming out of our comfort zone when she told me to look at it from a different perspective..instead of seeing it as stepping out my comfort zone, see it as expanding my comfort zone. when i start to think about..looking at situations in this way it doesn't feel so intimidating..hehs

Learning to look at things with different perspectives.

and yes as i look at the calendar i have about 1 month to exams..woo!!! i dunno to feel happy tat it is finally coming.. whatever it is i grateful that it is finally coming..

went to meet a good friend of mine for dinner today (wednesday 14 apr) hahaha!!! its been a long time since i met her up..hahha!! and i realised i kinda miss her..and all the times spent talking and listening to this friend of mine..i know this is kinda random but a sudden tot and question came to me, do I/we miss talking and listening to God? why is it that we only miss not talking, meeting or listening to our friends and not so much when it comes to God. one time to ponder on..

i realised something about myself, you know in a friendship there's usually one that will talk more and the other the listener, welll i think i'm the listener and the talk very little kind of a friend..haha!! though there are times when i talk alot of nonsense..but seriously am the listener kinda person..if there's one thing i can promise you as a friend is that i promise that am a pretty good listener though am rather lousy at giving suggestions or advise.

Which reminds me God is a friend that is a awesome listener and awesome advise giver..he never complains whenever we go to him and just talk, rant and let it all out. You know what is the best part of my friendship with God is that i dun have to worry about the time i can just call out to him and i dun have to put up any pretense aound him.

i realised the last time i blogged was roughly 2 months ago..hahaha!!! omg what happened to wanting to blog more regularly.. I realised after being active on twitter, the need to blog went way down. haha!!!

now am in the job hunting phase of my life and i totally dislike this process.. its been about a month since my contract ended at LOG..so in this period of unemployment i've been bumming ard..hahah!!! and so what have i been doing..hahaha!!! well i've been meeting up with friends, reading and doing school assignments.. ah which reminds me i have another discussion board thingy and project due next week..

anyways this is my first post using spider..hahahaha!!!
ytd i went to eat the international buffet at swissotel merchant court with my mother and 2 of my gym instructors..i enjoy the dinner and the knowing my gym instrucors a little bit more...

Lost is where you found me
Shattered and frail
But you Love me still
Trouble may surround me
My heart may fail
But you never will
You never will

met up with lili on friday for lunch and a chatting session heh..thanks for the awkward moments to help in sharing haa..been thinking through what was shared and said that day..its not gonna be a easy ride but am going to go ahead.. it will not be one that's smooth, it will not be one that i will like, it will be one that will not be comfortable. It's time to bring down the barriers and start walking forward. i will stop staying where i am or taking a step back..

i kinda sprained my wrist..i dunno how i did it, the doctor say it might be because when i was carrying heavy stuff i did not carry it properly or it might be when i use the computer mouse i too violent so i sprained my wrist unknowingly..gosh..this is not the first time this happened though..lol just that i did not see the doctor when i got it the previous times, maybe that's why this time it became rather bad....hahaha!!! so my hand kinda like swollen now..hahaha!!! the worse thing is that its my right hand that is injured..so many things i feel weird doing...esp when am bathing..lol..not used to doing things with my left hand..oh wells at least now i've seen the doctor hopefully it'll become better soon..

woohoo!! tmr is FRIDAY!!!!!! i am so excited...about what i don't know..haaaa..


A song tat i stumbled upon while listening for tracks for service on friday. it reminds me of His love for me.. makes my heart fuzzy..

God's Love song to us...
THIRD DAY - JUST TO BE WITH YOU:
"I've heard a tale that a man would climb a mountain
Just to be with the one he loves.
How many times has he broken that promise?
It has never been done
Well I never climbed the highest mountain,
but I walked the hill of calvary

And just to be with you I'll do anything,
there's no price I would not pay, no
Just to be with you I will give everything.
I would give my life away.
Yeaaaa

I've heard it said that a man would swim an ocean
Just to be with the one he loves.
But all of those dreams are an empty emotion
It can never be done.
Well I never swam the deepest ocean
But I walked upon the raging sea

And just to be with you I'll do anything,
there's no price I would not pay, no
and just to be with you I would give everything.
I would give my life away.
Yeaaaa

And I know that you don't understand the fullness of my love
How I died upon the Cross for your sin
And I know that you don't realize how much that I give you
And I promise I would do it all again

Just to be with you I've done everything
There's no price I did not pay, no
Just to be with you I gave everything
Yes I gave my life away.
Yeaaaaa

Just to be with you
Oh, just to be with you (3x)"

Sleeping on sunday feelssssss GOOOOOOD....LOL hahaha!!! well i woke up at abt 9 sth..went out to the living room and my sister tell me that she's bringing Qiqi to the dog run in Bishan Park and than she asked me if i want to go..lol she was meeting her friend at 10 there..and she only told me abt it at abt 935 liddat..so i rushed to bathe and eat my breakfast..in the end we left my house at 955am and we are so late..hahaha!!! we walked to the park and boy and Qiqi walk fast..hahaha!!!! i ran abit with her, bringing qiqi out is good exercise.. when we reached the park there were alot of dogs there big and small also have. hahah!!! Qiqi was so scared to let other dogs small her behind that she whined and bark so my sister must rescue her..even when Qiqi was on the chairs the other dogs refuse to let her go lol so she bark and bark..hahaha!!! She is so funnny..

Let me show u guys a few photos

Introducing Qiqi and my sister's leg..LOL

This is Qiqi hiding behind my sister to get away from Kiki (this male black poodle)

and qiqi again finally away from hiding and attempting to make friends with Kiki

And this is Qiqi when she was still a puppy...hahaha!!! sooooo cuteeeee hor..

school has finally started for me..school's on monday and wednesday, i am back to the no life amelia again.. mon, wed school, tues, thurs gym, friday if there's no prac i would like to rest at home..hahaha!!! nah....i am not no life amelia..i have a life its just the way i live it..
remember in my first post of the year i said that i can only skip school only once per mod..i think am gonna find that resolution hard to keep..both of my teachers are super chiong hei, one of them ended class late and the other one will end class at 10 sharp which is kinda a good thing lol..
I think i freaking suay all the transportation i take home for the past 2 days were freaking smellly, but the tuesday one was the killer, me piggy and ah lin took 93 home from ikea and when we boarded the bus we almost died, so a few stops ltr we decided to alight and take cab instead, sadly the cab stinks too...thank God it wasn't stuffy and the air-con was blowing quite strongly so it was bearable....my gosh bus drivers shld on the bus air-con bigger when there's alot of ppl in the bus so it won't feel so stuffy and smelly..

anyways...i am so looking forward to sunday, in the morn go hopekids, aft tat eat lunch den chiong home and catch up on some sleep..i've been on deprivation for the longest time ever..3 weeks...anymore i think soon i'll just fall sick..

some of the stage shots..hahaha!!! i found them on the net..so these pictures are not taken by me...LOL

Feb is here...hahahaha!!! one month of 2010 has passed, soon it'll be cny, YAY ang pows..

Went to the gym last thurs, i had to choose between IKEA's meatballs or gym, in the end i am amazed by the choice i made....LOL i chose to go to the gym, can you believe it...i chose gym over meatballs, i wonder what made me do it sia..anw i'm glad i went to the gym heh. That day there was a kickboxing session, it seriously proved that i have no hand leg eye co-ordination. and now am wondering how did i managed to play games like bball and badminton..haha!!!! maybe there's no link between them..

oh wells.....

Sat aft service i went for dinner with ah girl, aloy and dai, than i rushed off to meet my sister in Bishan to go SINGAPORE INDOOR STADIUM FOR A*MEI"S AMIT CONCERT!!! hahaha!!! wells we reached sth stadium only at about 815pm, thank God the concert haven't started yet..haha!! infront of us there was a japanese man, his wife and father, lol they were rather high, it was so funny..
anw I LOVE THE CONCERT ALOT!!! it was a different style from her usual concerts and sadly she did not perform on my favourite four sided stage..haha!!! anyways i still love her stage layout, it was simple and nothing fancy when you first looked at it, but when the concert started, the stage came alive with fabulous lightings and backdrops...this is the first time i see her using the backdrops as part of her whole concert.
the lightings were amazing, capture the music very well, all the timings and stuff..and the backdrop images are nice, it'll be nicer if we were sitting in the center..LOL..
Ok the difference in this concert and her previous concerts is that this is a fully rock concert with a few number of surprises from her...she sang a opera song in super high notes.. i was so amazed at the power of it..OMG..and at one song of the concert she had a lion performing with her, it was so cute..haahah!!!
Not only does she have very powerful vocals, she has really good stage presence and her ability to interact with the audience is amazing, she's got a good sense of humor. lol.
oh and her guitarists and bassist, use wireless connections so they can run ard the whole stage it was fun seeing the musicians being able to run ard the stage, and her backup singers they weren't standing at the back but they were at the front..and you could see them having fun in the concert as well..haha!!! there weren't any back up dancers in this concert..ahaha!!!

all in all i really had fun at the concert!! and her voice is still amazing!!

aft the concert we drove down to geylang to eat frog porridge, fuyong egg and my favourite si ji dou..hahaha!! the food was delicious...aft eating my sister drove her friends and me home...

the next day, which is ytd, my mum, sister and i brought my cousin and aunt to Singapore zoo..hahaha!!! i had so much fun there seeing all the animals, walking ard the zoo and taking the tram..wells the only thing we didn't take was the boat ride..hahaha!!! watched part of the animal show, the sea lion is sooo cute..hehe..took alot of pictures but i don't have them with me its with my sister, i shall wait for her to send them to me..hahaha!!!

went to cut and dye my hair ytd..was at the saloon for abt 3 to 4 hrs..LOL sit till my arse hurt..

And now i am back at work again..hais i am so bored now..haha!!

this week has got to be the most happening week in the office..LOL 2 coffee pots broke in 2 days..amazing right the strength of the ppl here..hahaha!!! and everyday its freezing in the office, i want to adjust the temperature..but cannot, this lady in the office will nag when someone adjust the temperature, its just annoying because of her side of the office everybody else have to suffer...and i'm usually the last person that will complain cold, so when i say its cold it means it really is. and the worse part is the aircon is blowing directly at me and literally in my face..finally i become smart and decide to bring my hoody today so i won't feel cold. yeah :D

heee:) i've been very productive in office increasing my music collection and found a few eye candies in the process..LOL i feel like some hamsup po...

hahaha!!! well i shall show u some photos

Eye candy #1

Eye Candy #2 (its the guy hahah!! the girl is chio tooo)


Eye Candy #3

Eye Candy #4

i take bus to work everyday and today is the first time i missed my bus stop because i was sleeping on the bus. When i woke up i saw my bus stop zoom by..than i think to myself oh shit, what a great way to start work and i was having a bad stomach, i was so tempted to alight and take cab into work. Haha!! in the end i didn't, i took the shuttle bus at the mrt station and its not free lo, have to pay 40 cents. Previously it was 20 cents, and you know why they increase the price?? The company say its because they did not increase price for the past 10 years...-_-'''

Alright, i finally got my timetable and i finally know when school is starting. haha!!! i need school to faster start, i need to use my braincells more, working has made me dumb..haha!!!

i shall attempt to blog more often..
i realised as i listen to things, i tend to imagine images in my head..if only i can put them into words, tat would be more helpful..

"Note To God"

If I wrote a note to God
I would speak whats in my soul
I'd ask for all the hate to be swept away,
For love to overflow
If I wrote a note to God
I'd pour my heart out on each page
I'd ask for war to end
For peace to mend this world
I'd say, I'd say, I'd say

Give us the strength to make it through
Help us find love cause love is over due
And it looks like we haven't got a clue
Need some help from you
Grant us the faith to carry on
Give us hope when it seems all hope is gone
Cause it seems like so much is goin wrong
On this road we're on

If I wrote a note to God
I would say what on my mind
I'd ask for wisdom to let compassion rule this world
Until these times
If I wrote a note to God
I'd say please help us find our way
End all the bitterness, put some tenderness in our hearts
And I'd say, I'd say, I'd say

Give us the strength to make it through
Help us find love cause love is over due
And it looks like we haven't got a clue
Need some help from you
Grant us the faith to carry on
Give us hope when it seems all hope is gone
Cause it seems like so much is goin wrong
On this road we're on

No, no no no
We can't do this on our own
So

Give us the strength to make it through
Help us find love cause love is over due
And it looks like we haven't got a clue
Need some help from you
Grant us the faith to carry on
Give us hope when it seems all hope is gone
Cause it seems like so much is goin wrong
On this road we're on

If I wrote a note to God

i first heard this song on the final result show of singapore idol season 3..when i heard the singer, my jaw dropped, she is so young only 17 but her voice sound like damn old laaa...haha!!!

anyways went to visit my grandmother ytd at CGH..she just had a operation ytd night for her back, am glad to see that she's ok and recovering:)

Went to bedok blk 85 ytd for dinner after visiting my grandmother, my first visit there and the food is amazing man!!!

First post on 2010....
i kept on telling myself to blog, but everytime i 'm in the new post page and start to type the first sentence i give up halfway and decides not to blog..i need to change this... LOL what's the point of having a blog if i don't blog..

Ok..a few updates for you, i started working at Larsen again as a temp receptionist after my exams in nov, the job is pretty simple and freaking slack...well in other words they're kinda like paying money to me to slack..haha!!!! no laaaa..i got do my job de lo..ans phone calls, open door, order stufff, distribute letters, doing labels..blah blah..basically also can be known as sai kang warrior..LOL slightly better by abit..haha!!! dun have alot of sai..somehow..i do miss working in cpf..hahah!!! apart from the friends i miss the work..processing all those applications was kinda fun and kinda fulfilling..but anyways since its over and i have moved on, i must strive to do the best i can in my current workplace, but den again how do i do my best..it'll be a qns i ask myself everyday.. I realised sth abt myself as i grow older i become not so relational i used to be able to talk to these 2 people together, but now when i eat with them and with another one of my friends who i can talk to pretty well i got nth to say and i'll just keep quiet and listen to the 3 of them speak and only talk when i have sth to say or when they ask me sth.. is it me or them..hmmmm..LOL

another update i joined the gym near my house there, its a woman gym..hmmmm..since starting exercising i feel healthier and not so sickly..lol anyways exercising really does wonders to your body..yaynesss am no that flabby anymore..lol ok that's not the main point of exercising. Really wanna have a healthy lifestyle..Grant me the discipline to continually live this kind of a lifestyle.


Ok for this new yea i have set some things i wanna see...

1) i wanna serve in HopeKids

(i have volunteered already, i don't want to give up halfway, until they don't need me anymore, i will want to serve in HopeKids)

Why i wanna do this is cuz as most people know i don't really like kids..why, cuz i think they are noisy and too active for my liking, this shld not be a reason why i don't want to serve in HopeKids if it can advance the kingdom, why not just do it, since i have the skills required to help them, den why not, i wanna bless the kids ministry. so yea...also i wanna break out of my comfort zone, i find i have become comfortable serving in youth. And the last reason is i wanna build discipline in my life.

2) i wanna be faithful in send out recordings

ok i managed to send out my first recording this week, i must not give up halfway, if i cannot even be faithful in this, how am i gonna be entrusted with greater stuffff.. also recordings will help the musios, singers, lead worshippers and sound to improve. Therefore amelia remember you must be faithful and send out recordings weekly and not give up halfway.

3) i can only skip class once per module

i must be a good student and not skip classes. the previous semester i skipped so many classes tat if i plus all the classes tat i've attended it will not the be even the number of classes per module..seee!! wat a wonderful student i am. i must not skip classes and do better this semester.

4) i wanna care for my voluteers like i care for my sheeps

this is a open declaration i wanna be a SHEPHERD!!!! i miss having someone to take care of...it'll not be easy, but i wanna do it...

I want my people to be strong and reaching their best potential. I don't want to just have a leader-volunteer realationship, i want to know them, i want them to know me, and i want to help them..But GOd please help me to bring down my barrier..

5) better relationship with my brother

I find this is a prayer i make every year. God help me to have patience and more love for my brother. Help me to understand him better, help me to relate to him better, and God open up his eyes to seeee.

6) Building stronger bonds with my LG and Shep

Well, we're still realatively new, i wanna avail myself more to my LG mates and hang out with them more. God help me help me to be more deep and relational, help me to find the courage and openess to share abt my life more.

Also a stronger r/s with my shep..heh:)

7) Going to the gym at least once a week and sleeping at least 6.5 hrs

wanna have a healthy lifestyle.


Alright this is it for now..