i've been out of action for abt month..hahaha!!! i meant online action. well my com went crazy and refused to let me go online, so i din have time to get it fixed till recently. Seriously i should have gotten a laptop instead of a desktop, than sending it for repair would have been easier.. LOL oh wells at least when i send it down to IBP i had someone who accompanied me, w/o which my journey would have been a boring one and one which i think i'll struggle in LOL. Thankew Ruiz for coming with me even though it was last minute and uber far, but i enjoyed the time spent with you. yeah!!! we may not be shepherd and sheep anymore but we are still friends heh:)

Studying with Lili was awesome!!! i managed to achieve many things which i think if i'm left by my own, i'd probably won't achieve that much.. Yea so thankew Lili for studying with me:)

ah..and i went to have lunch with wugui at IMM aft my paper last friday, haha!!! been such a long time since i stepped into IMM, ate at subway..lol i couldn't fin my way there. After that i took the IMM bus to IBP to collect my CPU..hehe.. yea so now am back in cyber space..i am here to torment the world..lol

ahhhhhh wellls....i think i'm useless i can't cut stuff properly cuz am scared i'll cut myself, am scared of climbing the ladder or height, cuz i scared i'll fall off, am scared of lighting a fire cuz i scared i'll burn myself. I remember last time in sec schoool there's this subject called D&T, i'll ask my friends to operate the machines for me cuz i scared i'll buff my fingers, or drill a hole in my own hand, or cut my fingers away.. so now u know why i choose Accounts instead of F&N and D&T...oh yah i scared to operate the sewing machine cuz i scared i'll sew myself...my conclusion I AM useless..

3 months of working at CPF is now over..haha!!! now when i think abt it, its kinda the first place that i actually really enjoyed working at..lol.. guess apart from the friends i made there, why i enjoy working there is cuz at least the forms that i'm processing/keying i know that somewhere out there it impacts someone, and if i dun do it properly it'll affect the company. In some sense am given some power to decide how much work i want to do and at what pace. i'm glad that my supervisor trust me enough to do sth for her, which if not done properly it'll sorta have to cause them to do it again. so yea..

So now that i stop working there le think i'll miss my friends there like pao, ro, clement, jon and siti..the ppl i talk crap with, zi hai with in office and lunching.

I went to watch My sister's keeper last friday, i rather enjoyed the movie, it was kinda sad. Something to learn from the movei, learn to let go of things, listen to what the person wants. oh and the person sitting next to my mum fainted in the movie, but we din know till the end of the movie, thank God there were some nursing students in the cinema or else..hmmm..but anyway we called the ambulance la, so think the girl is fine.

I AM STUCK.....






hahaha!!! not in the toliet bowl laaaaa...
i was stuck with my assignment, dunno what to write.. oh wells after thinking long and hard i finally thought of what to write..

i went to Hog's Breath ytd for dinner with my mama, sister and keith..keith drove us there..lol the jam in cte is like........
the food there is good..but i think sometimes they are quite in consistent in the food..sometimes its nice, sometimes its not...just nice ytd was nice, so we were satisfied..it was my third time there.

went for hope kids last sunday for their children's day service, seeing and hearing the children's choir is just so sweet and endearing..
haha!! the thing is i dun dare to go near kids, cuz i think they are violent and noisy and uncontrollable..but then we have to invest in their lives..hmmmm..i think its a challenge to wake up early on a sunday morning, lol...i shall give it some thought..

when i came home today, my mama gave me a surprise by telling me she got me A*mei's concert tickets (30th Jan at the indoor stadium) and its the most expensive de.. omg i was like soooo happy la..haha!! can't believe it la..gonna watch her concerts 3 times in 3 years..woohoo awesomenesss!!!! yay!!! I AM SO HAPPY!!!!!!!! lalala..you shld have seen me when i first heard the news..heheeee..

helllo!!!! haha!!! yeah...i am back to bloooooggggggg.....

Work this week was enjoyable though me and my colleague's workload had increased when another colleague quitted..despite this i was kinda happy and had a few instances of zi high-ness in office which rarely happens(in my other jobs).. Think as i work in CPF or work more i kinda begin to see things in a new light..like i begin to find joy in work..lol (How did this ever happened).

Was serving ytd, mixed the instruments..as i think back, the journey in sound had not been easy or rather a smooth one. Met alot of obstacles, had bad comments, had good comments, setbacks.. i remembered crying a few times as i served, can't remember what for, i rarely cry, so when i do it means its something really huge, or sth i feel really unjust (sth like bu fu qi that kind of thing), i remember being frustrated with myself, being irritated with ppl, being grumpy, having bad spirit, being tired. But above everything else i remember the joy i feel when i serve God in sound, i remember the passion i have for this ministry, i remember the satisfaction i get from serving, i remember the ppl i serve with and the ppl who have taught me much, i remember the many blessings from serving, i remember the LOVE that is shown, i remember the care and concern ppl showed, i remember the precious relationships built, i remember the scene of ppl crossing the line..

as i think, i thank God for placing me in sound, i thank God for growing me, i thank God for sustaining me, i thank God for believing in me, i thank God for placing ppl in my life..

i seriously think i'm a complete genius...
i'm such a genius that i forgot to bring my handphone out and i forgot to bring out my wallet too..argh..today is not a good day for me..
and another thing i was ordering mixed rice, i tot the veg was kang kong, but it was spinach, and i can't eat spinach..so in the end i din touch my vege at all..damn sad..

Think its been quite some time since i last blogged..
haha!!! oh wells am a lazy blogger and blog only when there's a need or feeling..

Well the first round of testing the new system at work is ending today..haha!! the next round will start about 2 weeks ltr..neways i found out my bosses are nice people.

Neways i think its cool that one of them is serving in her church as well, and we kinda chatted over email abt what we do in church.. haha!!! she quite Gong shi gong ban de..at work its all serious stuff. aft work or out of office we are friends..so got to know her a little better. yea!! I hope i'll be able to help her too..heh:)

anyways i went for my op or rather procedure last week..it was an extremely painful process at the end of the first round i was tearing at the end. I tot it was ending le, but den the chief came in and found out that there's a sound that's not supposed to be there sounding, he did a check on me and realised that the machine was positioned wrongly or not accurately. so he adjusted the machine and i went through the second round, the second round wasn't so bad, he kept the energy level constant and this round was shorter compared to the first one.

Aft the whole procedure i had back aches for abt 3days, its kinda the after effect of the procedure..


oh yah did i say am blogging in the office now..lol
gotta end here, work's coming in soon.. ITS FRIDAY!!!!!!!

alright in my previous post i said i had to go for my doc's appt earlier. And guess what the news wasn't bad neither was it very good. I just have kidney stone, but its ok all i need to do is go for some shockwave treatment thingy. yea..thank God..phew..

After a few years of not watching the ND parade, i watched it today and i think wah..not bad ah this year's one..i think my favourite part of the parade is the going through time tat one where got the performances from the diff times and also another fav part is the Wei Lian sang with Gayle..quite nice.

Played reverse catching today, it was fun and tiring...gosh tqj you can really run.. haha!!! the cg came to me hse today to cook for DK and have lunch with him to celebrate his bday..we like went ard NP like mad trying to find him..lol..

uber sleepy now..but i gotta do me project..:(

well...in my last post i was sick..and here i am sick again..darn..this sucks it has barely been a month and am sick again. hais..immune system what has happen to you????

here's some updates, i've started working at CPF board le about 2 weeks ago...well my department is nice.. hahah!!! my supervisor is a very nice lady and my bosses (by this i mean my 2 managers) are quite nice and rather young too, though i have not worked with them much..mayb next week den i'll know..

school has started too..well and the craziness begins..projects submissions again..haha!! OB was kinda interesting, marketing was fun and stats was boring..LOL..i made some pretty nice friends..and the interesting thing is that we don't mix ard in class much, but we only mix around when we are going out of school where we'll get lost.. the thing is i don't have much classes in HQ where i know my way around better, but i have classes in SP and NP where the place is big and everything looks the same to me..

went for my x-ray on tues, the doc injected me with some liquid, think i bled quite alot cuz they had to wipe my hand a few times after they took out the needle...now think there's a small bruise..hahah!! i could see my veins..u know the green line thingy it was like super obvious kinda scary. now cannot see le..phew..

got a phone call from the hospital ytd telling me that my doc wants to see me today, but i can't, so my appt is tmr aftnoon instead..my supervisor and mama tells me that if the hospital calls and wants to see me earlier den the fixed appt it means that they have some bad news for me..man i am damn scared and worried now. I have no idea what to expect..i am hoping really hard that its not bad news..

I AM FREAKING FREAKING FREAKING SCARED SCARED SCARED!!!

i have decided to blog after a long while, wellllll..haha!! the sick bug caught me last week. Coughed like mad..lol have to wear mask haha!!! and here's the photo of me wearing the mask.lol i look like some person planning to kill/rob someone..

haha!!! now i am feeling better...alot of phelgm though..haha!! damn disgusting.....oh wells went for a job interview ytd at MOM..hehe..din really felt like a interview though, they were doing it like we've got the job le.. My agent called me this morning to tell me and my friend that we've got the job. haha!!! joke la..i hope the job is good, the ppl ard is good and the supervisor is nice..

Think i've got to stop doing the domestic helper job le..so sad..oh wells what to do i need more cash flow, at least help my mama a little..

think this year we spent alot of money on medical.. sianz..

I pray my immune system will be stronger.

last week must have been the most frustrating week of the year for me..had to settle all my school stuff..lol i rather not talk about it..

anyways i slept with good news ytd that i got my subsidy!!!! Thankew God.
also havta thank my sis and keith for helping me sia..

CAMP IS COMING!!!!!!!!! its this friday!!! omg!!! so fast..

went to celebrate stef's bday ytd..haha!!! and my friends told me that i can write "Amelia's series of unfortuate events".. LOL cuz i was telling them my misfortunes when i was younger..

let me tell you a few,

1) when i was in primary 3 or so, normally my maid would come down and pick me up aft the school bus drops me off near my block. One my mama decided that i can come up on my own without my maid coming to pick me up, that night i was very excited cuz it's the first time i go home myself, so i started running in the carpark to reach home faster and i trip and fell banged my teeth on the floor, as you can guess my mouth bleeded like mad. Thus the chip on my front teeth. Yes go on laughing at me..oh wells from then on my maid come down to pick me up everyday until the day she went back.. lol

2) again in primary school or so, i was going out with my mama to my aunty's or uncle's place for bbq or steamboat. My mama asked me to carry the empty water container the kinds you use when you go out have bbq. so anyways she was walking in front, walking quite fast, so being young and having short legs then i ran aft her a little and yes again i tripped and fell, and my leg sorta like glided on the floor. the wound was kinda big and painful. It was on the carpark floor, the container glided a little too. So my mama turned back and scolded me for being clumsy and checking whether the container got spoil anot, seems like she cared more for the container then me..lol no la in the end she help me wash the wound and put the yellow color lotion thingy wghen we reached my aunty's or uncle's hse.

3) this time i upgrade liao become secondary school. Think i was about sec 1 liddat, was playing basketball with my friends. playing quite hiongly, the ball was flying out i chionged to get it but den hor i din see that the bench was there by the time i did, i couldn't stop and i was running super fast, the most sway part was there's a guy sitting there so to avoid hitting him i had to siam and so my stomach area or sth hit the handle of the bench and my knee hit the leg of the chair. The result is i had 2 big bruises that day. All the guy fault, sit there make me cannot break my fall better instead make me worse..lol.

4) again in secondary school and also playing basketball with a bunch of friends. My friend was shooting, and she missed. My friend and was trying to get rebound, in the end it went out of our reach so we ran aft the ball and we tripped over each other so in order to break my fall and not land on top of her i landed in a very weird way and so i sprained my ankle, it was sooooooo painful la.. worse part was i had to walk home. on my way limping home this aunty came to me and say you sprained your leg ah, try reaxing your leg and shake it to loosen the vein or sth.. so i listened and tried, it din really work cuz mine wasn't the vein that kanna. When i reached home i called my father, he made an appointment with the tie da and came to pick me up immediately. when the doc was massaging or rather rubbing my leg, he did sth and i shouted and started crying cuz i was sooooo pain, in the end i couldn't run or do any strenous activity for a long time. haha!! had to stop going for netball, neways my netball cher was very good to me, haha she treated me to a sandwich and drinks once.

i shall stop here..it stills hurt to think abt this..hahaha

i have a sudden urge to blog, so i shall do it..
I'm having a bad throat now, on monday it felt worse. But now my throat feels like its being wrapped in some plastic sheet and trapped behind a wall..the feeling is terrible..its like its stuck somewhere and cannot force out. and i realised i can't talk over a long period of time or i'll start losing my voice and have trouble talking. Feeling so tired now, think i used up all my strenght talking lol..(not true) its cuz i woke up uber early today.

oh wells i am now at a loss for wat to do...i need to consult my big daddy

i shall blog till here

I wonder where have the motivation to blog has gone to?? hmmmm..
anyways this sentence from a song has been stuck on me ever since i heard the song, the sentence goes like this "when no one seems to understand, I Do" thus the msn nick...
so when no one seems to understand, who does. Would anyone understand even if u explain. As i watching a TV drama i line went like this, You don't understand the pain you're putting everyone through, den the person replies back if i told u how i feel and what i want would u understand what i am going through.. Everyone wants someone who understands them, but den in the limited world, who is the one person who truly understands. Even your loved ones, spouse, mother, father, sister, brother cannot understand u fully. So the question remains, who can understand u fully. And the song goes on and say i knit u in your mother's womb and called u by name.. now we have the answer..the one who knew us before we were formed, before we knew him. The best parent, lover, friend anyone could have.. Decipher it yourself..

all right!! i am backkkk..lol..a friend tole me i blog once in awhile to clean of the cobwebs in my blog..how true is that..hehe

neways my birthday just passed like not too long ago..had about 1.5 weeks of celebrations which i totally enjoyed.

First up was dinner with my girls namely ling, cher, mich and stef (*too bad piggy is not here at the moment, she's in brisbane studying). Had zi char with them. which they were so sweet to blanjar me, and they surprised me with a cake too..so sweet hor..aft that we went to cher's hse to WII!!!!! hehe.. the dinner may be simple or food not so good but to mean i guess the time i spent with them is wat i value more that night.

Second was dinner with me Poly mates also my girls lol..and they are JH*, WW* (*wheelchair reunion, we ROCK!!!) Lilian, Jac, Peiwen, Huiyu and YeeYong. Ate at Swensons with this bunch, had a wonderful time with them, it's been long since i last saw all of them. They bought me a ice cream cake and balloons, and made swenson play the bday song..soooo paiseh, previously had aalready listened to the song like 2 times le, mine is the third.. lol..

Thirdly was dinner with Ruiz and Davin..hahaha!!!! super long neh eat dinner with the both of them le..it was a good time spent, catching up with Ruiz..hehe we were walking ard Marina Square while waiting for Davin to come..We ate at Coffee Club..omg the dish i ate was nice, it had a weird name too piri piri chicken..lol..we ate desserts too, the apple crumble is soooooo goooooood...*mouth watering just thinking about it*

Fourth, i had dinner with my family at some thai restaurant near the national library..yeah..the food is soooooo goooooood man..fantabulous..the last time i ate thai food was when i went to thailand..lol..

hahaha!!! so many to write..oh man..ok i shall write one more last one..lunch at ashtons with me cg, hahaha!! it wasn't an easy task to get there, i walked so much that day, but i really thank all of u for the love and effort put into celebrating my bday that day. I felt really loved and touched. Thank you guys sooooo much.

During this period i feel soooo blessed by God. I got a job that allows me great flexibilty, though does not pay much but at least its something and i get to learn a number of things tooo.. i got to work in larsens again for abt 1 week plus getting to catch with my friends at work it feels great though i had nth much to do lol.. plus all the great frens i had to hung out with me over the period of me celebrating my bday..heee

and thanks to all who wished me via sms, facebook or msn..THANK YOU!!!

hmmmm..like seriously...i dun really care anymore..i shall not be the nice person anymore...hahaha!!!!


alright monday wii was FUN!!!! had muscle ache the next day though from the boxing. its so awesome to see cher, ling, mich again..had so much fun with them..

sunday went to old airport road with muskles and piggy..am supposed to use nicknames for them..neways while driving muskles got lost so had to call for help..hahaha!!! damn funny and she had a ultra big bruise on her leg..like damn huge la.. neways that's not the point. OMG the food is like heavenly la..i can't wait to go back there again..i doubt anyone will take me there again though. Went to muskles house aft eating and i sat on her massage chair uber shuang, she plugged in a music player and the chair went according to the song's beat..hahaha

i went to eat teppanyaki today with shan..very nice sia..prob will go again some time soon..

i am bored but am lazy to type..........LOL

gonna be a little emo in this post..hmmmmm..i always wonder, aft opting out from a grp my friends form. Contacts has ceased to exist. Like celebrating christmas, cny, new year or whatever, i am never included anymore. What does the 3 years spent tgt mean to everyone. i hope none of them read this post at all.
Mayb i shld have never opted out at all. But up till now i've never regretted my decision. i think i'll feel pressure if i stayed on cuz probably out of the 10 meet ups they have i can only make it for 1.

oh wells..dun want to say anymore le.. emoed

i am............BACKKKKKKKK!!!!

wahaha!!! i think i am a uber lazy blogger.

ok my first post of year 2009 that is abt 30 days late..lol

I wanted to blog on the first day of 2009, but look now is chinese new year.
So here's a BIIIGGGG HHHHAAAPPPPYYYY NNNNEEEEWWWW YYYYEEEEAAAARRRR to alllll!!

ok this Chinese New Year had been great, apart of all the ang bows i got, the time spent with family is sooooo goood, and the food was fantabulous..haha!!!

I guess this new year was a many firsts..

it was a first time i got ang bows from my cousins hahaha!!! 3 of them to be exact
it was a first time i went to my first uncle's house. Believe it or not in my 21 plus years of living on earth i've never been to his house before.
it was the first time i met my cousin's mother in law from china, she's a nice lady cuz she say i very cute..hahah!!! no la she's really nice
this sunday will be the first time i go to my 4th uncle's new house in eunos.
it was a first time for me to get stomach flu too, it came ytd and i still have it now as am typing this post. I've never felt so sick before in my life apart from the bad gastic i got like 3 to 4 years ago, where i was unable to sleep and walk properly.

I din have any appetite to eat at all..i struggled to finish a packet of noodle ytd so i could take medicine for my headache and fever. At night i struggled to eat a little rice, we were having steamboat..sad.. i took a few mouths of rice and i din eat anymore and i vomitted it out. So technicallyy i oni ate noodle the whole day.

i went to the doctor just now, he gave me some medicine. i just ate porridge my first meal of the day. I still feel bloated now..shucks