yay!! i changed my blogskin..hahahaha!! was so bored of the old one..so i tot i tried sth new..oh well am quite happy with tis one..

went church office ytd to watch some videos, loved it very much, shld watch more man!! yea!
learnt many things from the videos..

met up with the ywam gals on tues at TCC had a great time of sharing and getting to know one another. and hearing how each want to grow in their ministry. really had a great time with them.
lets meet up more often!

i don't know why am feeling this way
i shld be happy, but somehow there's fear in me
will it all the same as last time?
will i treat u the same
or will i be different
will i be able to forget the past?
will u be different?
will u change back to ur old self?
will i feel awkward being in ur presence?
will i love u the same?
how is everything going to fit in place
am i too used to not having u around
tat am not use to having u around?

questions questions and questions

the overnight at Walmond's place is fun fun fun, it was quit amazing tat i managed to stay awake until 6 am, dozing off here and there while watching ppl play mahjong. i still dunno how to play the game lar..haiz so sad, everyone in my family noes how to play but me..boohoo..
oh well simply love the time of bbqing and the time of writing cards to affirm one another.. yep.. really love this family of God. Thanks guys for the cards and the fun time.



somehow a feeling of joy and anticipation is overwhelmed by fear and confusion, am happy yet at the same time afraid.

hahahaha!! helped Li and jess to dye their hair today, and the result was not bad..hehehe and me being the naughty girl such as i, i went to use the left over dye to streak my hair, too bad its not obvious enuff...sad..
hehe..neways accompanied Ruiz to Bedok to dye her hair, was introduced by Jon Lee..hehe..the outcome of it not bad leh..quite pretty..think prob next time i go there dye and highlight my hair.
oh yes!! i've finally bought all the gifts i want to get le..Thank God my mum came with me to shop ytd, or else i would not have bought so many things..yeah!!

after quite some time i've deicided to post..
wahaha!! yay!! now is my term break!! lets all rejoice for amelia finally got her long awaited break..hehe think the break came at the right time, just in time for Christmas and just in time before i go crazy from all my school work, time really flies when u're studying, am now in my 2nd semester le..going to be in second year soon..wow..its really fast..

oh well..went to sentosa last friday, really had an awesome time together with my cg mates, kayaking is so fun, the guys were evil, they capsized everyone.
finally got to meet up with Carol and Shimama last fri, its been ages since we last met man..guess this shows how much i miss my secondary school classmates..

Camp was awesome awesome awesome!! think i missed out quite alot of teachings..haiz couldn't make it on thurs and friday morning..
two things i really enjoyed most thru out this camp is the JUMP concert and the fun and fellowship with my cg.. Let me tok more abt it..JUMP was awesome jiayi and me really praise like mad!! though we were doing sound she told me, lets tune it nicely and praise and worship God, the atmosphere was wow!!
Fun and fellowship was crazy we played panic, u can really see us snatching cards, pulling each other away and not forgetting all the forfeits : i am a handsome worm/tortoise, i am Harry Potter, the dragon is chasing me, hi housekeeping, in the name of king clubs.. juz naming some of them..hehe

really want to Thank God for Jiayi for leading the sound team so well thru out this camp..

I love my CG I love YWAM!!

sometimes things just seem sooo hopeless and there's nothing much i can do. You're the only one i can seek comfort.
God I really pray that the situation will turn around and you'll work in his life. He needs u to intervene, i need u to intervene..teach him ur ways and touch his heart.

ytd and tis morning was the worse days of my life.. my throat hurt so bad and my voice my VOICE sounded weird..i felt like laughing hearing myself talk..aww man everytime i talk, i have to struggle..thank God, my fever is gone or else i'll have to struggle even more..hehe.. oh my throat is not that pain le..so tat's great at least i can go camp w/o much worries..

oh..think i've missed out on school quite abit..gotta catch up.

Excited for camp tmr!!

today's worship is really indescribable , Lord am truly amazed how you love me, who am i to deserve such love, despite all the hurts you still love us for who we are. Am truly amazed.

had 2 tests last week i can say quite confidently that i'll do quite well, God really helped me thru my 2 papers..yea! oh and i got back my stats paper, am quite amazed at the results i got, it was much much better den what i had expected, judging from the fact that i din really understand the qns.

aww...man i just realised that my com doesn't have the software i need to do my homework..*go bonkers*
CG today was awesome!! Thank God my mother let me off earlier, or else i dun think i'll be able to make it in time for CG. Had sth different for CG today. Its refreshing, being real to each other.
Went studying together with Ruiz and Ben aft CG, wah breakthru, i actually managed to study for long hours..hahahaha!! I feel so accomplished now..

ytd's svc was incredible, the dance was fantastic.. one thing i really learn from sermon ytd was to have an expectant heart. How much are u expecting God to touch you?

ok my blog has been dead for quite some time. So i've decided to revive it today..wahahaha!! oh well..many things have happened the past days that i've not been updating, and am too lazy now to type out everything. So i'll juz type wat i feel like typing now.
Sometimes i do feel like quiting my job at delifrance, cuz i feel i can't handle working and studying at the same time, it's pretty tiring, but i can't quit cuz i have to help out with the financial situation at home. think now my stress level has increased as compared to last time.

ok..i can't wait to play bball, i miss it sooo much..

oh yah...little wheelchair is born!! lets all rejoice!! hahaha!!

Refuge

I sing a love song You Lord
Everyday, every night,
Tell of Your goodness and mercy
Tell the world,
How You’ve rescued me
Picked me up from sin and shame
Your breath gives me new life

Where can I go from Your presence
Under Your wings I take refuge
Your Spirit lives within my heart
I know we’ll never be apart

Everyday I grow closer to You Lord
I long to see Your face
And hide in Your embrace
All my life, dwelling in Your holy place
My heart and life You’ve changed
I’ll never be the same
Never be the same

working with Paradise live worship band for the past 2 days was awesome, i've learnt many things, and ireally love their songs!! oh well neways i think Ollie Sebestian and DV are great musios, well the others are great too, but Ollie and DV are my favourite, i really love the way they play and i love ollie's voice.
Sound has been put up to a new standard, yea..a few things i wanna say, working well together, and interacting with the band is very impt, so that we can be familar with wat they need on stage, one other thing is don't be afraid of going into new grounds for mixing or even in a particular way of playing..
there's no leader, treat it as if it is ur own..

yay!! i oni need to go to school next week for 2 hrs..i think its super retarded that i have to go back to school..and it's pretty tempting to skip lesson that day..haiz but cannot cuz of the stupid 85% rule..

oh well lets tok abt today..its a fulfilling day today, learnt much from sermon today, prayers..prayers are so impt in our spiritual lives. be still and listen to his voice..

had shepherding on fri, i learnt abt vision, i gotta haf a vision for my ministry as well as for my life. Having a vision is not juz knowing it in our heads but its knowing it with our hearts.

school started last week..so sad lah...well this semester's timetable is horrible, i prefer last semester's timetable better.. neways school is going well for me so far, my lecturers and tutors are all females except for my econs lecturer..i miss Mr Hang!! ok don't think i'll tok about school le..cuz its a very boring subject wahaha!!

yes lets tok abt today..i was like some crazy laughing machine today, i laughed non-stop while walking till the point I had to lean on the wall and walk and laugh at the same time, pple muz haf thought that i was crazy..

haiz..i can't think of wad to type le..sleepy mode le..
no no..can't sleep yet...i muz finish up my tutorials..hahahaha!!

am feeling very happy today..lalalala...hahaha!! had an awesome cg today, i laughed like mad lah..craziness, my hand got vandalised today, and i vandalised QianJin's hand, hahaha!!we were playing 2 truths and one lie, we had to choose which is the lie and if we're wrong we'll get drawn on the hand..so sad, i guessed so many wrongly lah..one lesson learn though, dun sit next to Daniel when playing this..ahh!! teaching by shuz was great, believe tat media really affect our lives one way or another, i muz put myself to the letting go test yea..
actually cant make it for cg de, cuz my mama din allow me to go, but thank God he made a way out for me, today when i asked my mama again, though she din say nething but aft she left to go market she msg me and asked wad time i'll be back, yea so that was the go ahead sign from her.

yea..sat service, all i can say is wow!! got feedback tat sound was good tat day,though there some minor weird sounds. hehe..the altarcall was really ministering..Here i am, send me.
but one amazing sight was when a group of primary school kids came in, its not juz a grp of 5-6 ppl, but its like the whole class came, one encouraging thing was some of them said yes to receiving Jesus into their lives..

had the most memorable cg today with NF1..wow..hey girls thanks for making it so memorable, i really aprreciate loads man!! yea..so this post shall be dedicated to u gals, i dun think everyone will read this but i'll still post..
ok so here goes...

Carmen- hey serving God together with you in the same group had been great man! can really see how much u've grown thruout this peroid of time. I truly wanna say a big big jia you to you..the Harvest is coming..prepare for it!

Himyi- hey my suaning victim, hahaha!! i truly enjoy the times spent together with you man, talking to you is always so heart-warming, cuz you're a great listener, and a great fren to lean on to..

Jogina- hey hey..JOGI!! hahaha!! wow..my hyper partner..being hyper w/o u will be soo different man..hahaha!! but nonetheless i'll still be hyper, heee..hey u're filled with great potential. times spent with u are unforgetable, all the laughter and the brain whacking moments..hehe..u noe wad i mean..

JiaQian-hey my oh so wonderful sheep..hahaha!! well these few months of taking care of u had been the most enjoyable times of my life..i cherish every single moment we had talking and juz having fun..

Shuping- hey gal..dun think u'll get to read this but neways times spent with u are unforgetable and i really learnt alot from u..although the times we spent together is short, but from where i am now i can see that u're improving alot, thats good..keep it up..

Karen- XiaoMei!! hehe..i really really enjoy the times we spent together in cg, service and even tat time when we met to discuss sth. i'll nv fail to laugh when i meet u..hehe..trust God in wadever u do..

Esther- hey u're really starting to open up..tats great, i really enjoy talking to u..

miaoshan- hey gal, this period of time of noeing u, well all i can say is that u are a great person to hang-out and crap with..hehehe... i really enjoy the times we crap with each other..hahaha! thinking bout it makes me laugh

wanting-hey my motor mouth gal..hehe..u're one gal i truly enjoy toking too..and u can tok very fast..hahaha!! u're a person who is very eager to learn..continue to ask more qns man!!

Krystal and Yvonne- hey seeing u gals today is great man!! i really gonna miss u two man..i hope i can remb who is who when i see u again..hahaha!! as u noe i haf stm..hahaha!!



hey gals..i really gonna miss all of u loads and love u gals...once again thanks for a memorable day today!!

my dog is officially 1 year old today..hehe..happy birthday to u Qiqi..

oh well i made an observation abt myself its i'm getting more cheena, and that's bad..ahh..no!! i dun want to be cheena, its so not my style..no!! ahhh!! nightmare.. ok i got to pollute myself more with non-cheena things like i shld tok to caroline more and let her pollute me..ahhh!! I dun want to be cheena..ok caroline u've gotta help me.. i'm desperate..

neways my timetable is out...boo hoo..i got lesser breaks..like on monday i haf lessons straight from 1pm all the way to 6pm..argh..but 1 good thing is at least i dun haf to stay in school till so late..

Mind's cafe is such a great place to hangout. I'm now addicted to the boardgame yinsh..its a mind boggling game, it killed alot of my braincells..


things mummy say can be hurting..argh..cant i haf a little more freedom during the hols, am having my last week of hols cant i haf juz haf a whole week of fun, sometimes i feel am being so controlled cuz u're afraid i'll become like them, but cant u see am different from them, why cant u see that. or mayb its bcuz am the youngest..but still am already 18, but i feel like am still 14..argh..
i seriously dunno how to pls u..enlighten me pls..

today is a FUN FUN FUN day..yea..it started of with Kbox..yay, jqian, himyi and me, sang like crazy, thank God no glass broke, haha!! and i took some interesting videos, hahaha!! now i can blackmail ppl le..am soo evil..aft K we went to K-pool to play pool lar, obvious rite, well sth embarrassing happended lah..i shall not elaborate cuz if i do, den i dunno where to put my face le...hahaha!! yupp, we played pool, so being the very unskillful players tat we are we finish playing one game in like 45mins..super long lah..the table beside us finish dunno how many games le we still stuck at our first game..yea so aft playing 2 rounds we deicided to go. We went to Jurong Point, we went there to eat, i was super hungry, we ate at long john silver. Aft eating we walked around saw Zing and jogi...hahaha!! hee...neways am too lazy to describe all the things tat happened..hee..welll aft leaving JP Jqian and i decided to go back amk for another round of pool..well...this time i was like superly not on form, in fact i got no form lor..everytime i try to aim at a ball, always cannot hit de..so paiseh lor..was distracted i guess..hahaha!! excuses hahaha!!

oh well..the happy things aside, sometimes i think why parents can say things tat can really hurt their children so much, why are they unreasonable sometimes, why do they make a big fuss out of small matters, why sometimes are they so childish, why am i always getting scolded at for sth i never done. sometimes i think why am i born into this family, why are my family members this way, why can't they behave like normal ppl, why do they have to be so different and be looked down on by others??
so many qns..so many whys..oni u can ans them..

woah cg today was fab, i kanna sabohed lah..aiyoh, but it wasn't very sucessful lor..hahaha!!
neways really loved the teaching Daniel taught today, being a team player, though we're serving in ministry we haf to remb we are God's child first and foremost..
played an tiring card game today hahaha!! wah..think ah play games in cg really can sweat alot de.hahaha!! interesting last time play games muz think if haf enuff place to run around not, now no need, haf anot of running space.
it feels great to be in YWAM, am back to my birthplace, really bring backs loads of memory..


putting the Kingdom above my agenda

will be attending my first ywam cg tmr, so exciting..oh well..i've decided not to work for the whole of next week mainly is to enjoy what's ever left of my hols and to really take time to really chiong in the pionneering grp..yea..though am in ywam but still be helping in NF for awhile..yupp..
haven't been sleeping well for the past few nights, am pretty sleepy while typing this post, so if wad i type is difficult to understand pls forgive me, cuz am not in the right state of mind now..
I felt really great in svc today, the testimony from Yuqian and Marcus(is that his name hahaha!! cant remb) and Sunny is really powerful, sermon abt discipleship is really wow!! Do we see the potential in our ppl? Are we allowing our leader full access into our lives?

oh well since i cant seem to get my other blog to work i shld juz post here..neways ytd i went to watch corpse bride together with Shuz, Gwen and Daniel, its a nice movie with great music. Aft the movie we went to Chomp Chomp to eat supper, well what did we eat, we ate chee kway, stingray, chicken wings, satay and two big cup of sugarcane drink..yesh we ate tat much and we finished everything including 3 plates of rice, wahaha!! really had loads of fun with them.. well before the movie i met jqian, hahaha!! we went to the national library, it has got like 9 levels. so interesting still got courtyard de..hahaha!! My mother blessed me ytd, she bought me a new hp, yesh the one that i wanted..hahaha!! its a pretty long story, so i wont say nething here, cuz if i were to type everything out i'll sleep while typing..

yep, saturday's svc was great man, i did FOH alone, i was so nervous, it was a good experience.. i think i'll do alone more next time. really gotta learn how to mix the drums and other intruments well.. yesh i muz suck all of Royston skills before he leaves us all by ourselves.