Feb is here...hahahaha!!! one month of 2010 has passed, soon it'll be cny, YAY ang pows..

Went to the gym last thurs, i had to choose between IKEA's meatballs or gym, in the end i am amazed by the choice i made....LOL i chose to go to the gym, can you believe it...i chose gym over meatballs, i wonder what made me do it sia..anw i'm glad i went to the gym heh. That day there was a kickboxing session, it seriously proved that i have no hand leg eye co-ordination. and now am wondering how did i managed to play games like bball and badminton..haha!!!! maybe there's no link between them..

oh wells.....

Sat aft service i went for dinner with ah girl, aloy and dai, than i rushed off to meet my sister in Bishan to go SINGAPORE INDOOR STADIUM FOR A*MEI"S AMIT CONCERT!!! hahaha!!! wells we reached sth stadium only at about 815pm, thank God the concert haven't started yet..haha!! infront of us there was a japanese man, his wife and father, lol they were rather high, it was so funny..
anw I LOVE THE CONCERT ALOT!!! it was a different style from her usual concerts and sadly she did not perform on my favourite four sided stage..haha!!! anyways i still love her stage layout, it was simple and nothing fancy when you first looked at it, but when the concert started, the stage came alive with fabulous lightings and backdrops...this is the first time i see her using the backdrops as part of her whole concert.
the lightings were amazing, capture the music very well, all the timings and stuff..and the backdrop images are nice, it'll be nicer if we were sitting in the center..LOL..
Ok the difference in this concert and her previous concerts is that this is a fully rock concert with a few number of surprises from her...she sang a opera song in super high notes.. i was so amazed at the power of it..OMG..and at one song of the concert she had a lion performing with her, it was so cute..haahah!!!
Not only does she have very powerful vocals, she has really good stage presence and her ability to interact with the audience is amazing, she's got a good sense of humor. lol.
oh and her guitarists and bassist, use wireless connections so they can run ard the whole stage it was fun seeing the musicians being able to run ard the stage, and her backup singers they weren't standing at the back but they were at the front..and you could see them having fun in the concert as well..haha!!! there weren't any back up dancers in this concert..ahaha!!!

all in all i really had fun at the concert!! and her voice is still amazing!!

aft the concert we drove down to geylang to eat frog porridge, fuyong egg and my favourite si ji dou..hahaha!! the food was delicious...aft eating my sister drove her friends and me home...

the next day, which is ytd, my mum, sister and i brought my cousin and aunt to Singapore zoo..hahaha!!! i had so much fun there seeing all the animals, walking ard the zoo and taking the tram..wells the only thing we didn't take was the boat ride..hahaha!!! watched part of the animal show, the sea lion is sooo cute..hehe..took alot of pictures but i don't have them with me its with my sister, i shall wait for her to send them to me..hahaha!!!

went to cut and dye my hair ytd..was at the saloon for abt 3 to 4 hrs..LOL sit till my arse hurt..

And now i am back at work again..hais i am so bored now..haha!!

this week has got to be the most happening week in the office..LOL 2 coffee pots broke in 2 days..amazing right the strength of the ppl here..hahaha!!! and everyday its freezing in the office, i want to adjust the temperature..but cannot, this lady in the office will nag when someone adjust the temperature, its just annoying because of her side of the office everybody else have to suffer...and i'm usually the last person that will complain cold, so when i say its cold it means it really is. and the worse part is the aircon is blowing directly at me and literally in my face..finally i become smart and decide to bring my hoody today so i won't feel cold. yeah :D

heee:) i've been very productive in office increasing my music collection and found a few eye candies in the process..LOL i feel like some hamsup po...

hahaha!!! well i shall show u some photos

Eye candy #1

Eye Candy #2 (its the guy hahah!! the girl is chio tooo)


Eye Candy #3

Eye Candy #4

i take bus to work everyday and today is the first time i missed my bus stop because i was sleeping on the bus. When i woke up i saw my bus stop zoom by..than i think to myself oh shit, what a great way to start work and i was having a bad stomach, i was so tempted to alight and take cab into work. Haha!! in the end i didn't, i took the shuttle bus at the mrt station and its not free lo, have to pay 40 cents. Previously it was 20 cents, and you know why they increase the price?? The company say its because they did not increase price for the past 10 years...-_-'''

Alright, i finally got my timetable and i finally know when school is starting. haha!!! i need school to faster start, i need to use my braincells more, working has made me dumb..haha!!!

i shall attempt to blog more often..
i realised as i listen to things, i tend to imagine images in my head..if only i can put them into words, tat would be more helpful..

"Note To God"

If I wrote a note to God
I would speak whats in my soul
I'd ask for all the hate to be swept away,
For love to overflow
If I wrote a note to God
I'd pour my heart out on each page
I'd ask for war to end
For peace to mend this world
I'd say, I'd say, I'd say

Give us the strength to make it through
Help us find love cause love is over due
And it looks like we haven't got a clue
Need some help from you
Grant us the faith to carry on
Give us hope when it seems all hope is gone
Cause it seems like so much is goin wrong
On this road we're on

If I wrote a note to God
I would say what on my mind
I'd ask for wisdom to let compassion rule this world
Until these times
If I wrote a note to God
I'd say please help us find our way
End all the bitterness, put some tenderness in our hearts
And I'd say, I'd say, I'd say

Give us the strength to make it through
Help us find love cause love is over due
And it looks like we haven't got a clue
Need some help from you
Grant us the faith to carry on
Give us hope when it seems all hope is gone
Cause it seems like so much is goin wrong
On this road we're on

No, no no no
We can't do this on our own
So

Give us the strength to make it through
Help us find love cause love is over due
And it looks like we haven't got a clue
Need some help from you
Grant us the faith to carry on
Give us hope when it seems all hope is gone
Cause it seems like so much is goin wrong
On this road we're on

If I wrote a note to God

i first heard this song on the final result show of singapore idol season 3..when i heard the singer, my jaw dropped, she is so young only 17 but her voice sound like damn old laaa...haha!!!

anyways went to visit my grandmother ytd at CGH..she just had a operation ytd night for her back, am glad to see that she's ok and recovering:)

Went to bedok blk 85 ytd for dinner after visiting my grandmother, my first visit there and the food is amazing man!!!

First post on 2010....
i kept on telling myself to blog, but everytime i 'm in the new post page and start to type the first sentence i give up halfway and decides not to blog..i need to change this... LOL what's the point of having a blog if i don't blog..

Ok..a few updates for you, i started working at Larsen again as a temp receptionist after my exams in nov, the job is pretty simple and freaking slack...well in other words they're kinda like paying money to me to slack..haha!!!! no laaaa..i got do my job de lo..ans phone calls, open door, order stufff, distribute letters, doing labels..blah blah..basically also can be known as sai kang warrior..LOL slightly better by abit..haha!!! dun have alot of sai..somehow..i do miss working in cpf..hahah!!! apart from the friends i miss the work..processing all those applications was kinda fun and kinda fulfilling..but anyways since its over and i have moved on, i must strive to do the best i can in my current workplace, but den again how do i do my best..it'll be a qns i ask myself everyday.. I realised sth abt myself as i grow older i become not so relational i used to be able to talk to these 2 people together, but now when i eat with them and with another one of my friends who i can talk to pretty well i got nth to say and i'll just keep quiet and listen to the 3 of them speak and only talk when i have sth to say or when they ask me sth.. is it me or them..hmmmm..LOL

another update i joined the gym near my house there, its a woman gym..hmmmm..since starting exercising i feel healthier and not so sickly..lol anyways exercising really does wonders to your body..yaynesss am no that flabby anymore..lol ok that's not the main point of exercising. Really wanna have a healthy lifestyle..Grant me the discipline to continually live this kind of a lifestyle.


Ok for this new yea i have set some things i wanna see...

1) i wanna serve in HopeKids

(i have volunteered already, i don't want to give up halfway, until they don't need me anymore, i will want to serve in HopeKids)

Why i wanna do this is cuz as most people know i don't really like kids..why, cuz i think they are noisy and too active for my liking, this shld not be a reason why i don't want to serve in HopeKids if it can advance the kingdom, why not just do it, since i have the skills required to help them, den why not, i wanna bless the kids ministry. so yea...also i wanna break out of my comfort zone, i find i have become comfortable serving in youth. And the last reason is i wanna build discipline in my life.

2) i wanna be faithful in send out recordings

ok i managed to send out my first recording this week, i must not give up halfway, if i cannot even be faithful in this, how am i gonna be entrusted with greater stuffff.. also recordings will help the musios, singers, lead worshippers and sound to improve. Therefore amelia remember you must be faithful and send out recordings weekly and not give up halfway.

3) i can only skip class once per module

i must be a good student and not skip classes. the previous semester i skipped so many classes tat if i plus all the classes tat i've attended it will not the be even the number of classes per module..seee!! wat a wonderful student i am. i must not skip classes and do better this semester.

4) i wanna care for my voluteers like i care for my sheeps

this is a open declaration i wanna be a SHEPHERD!!!! i miss having someone to take care of...it'll not be easy, but i wanna do it...

I want my people to be strong and reaching their best potential. I don't want to just have a leader-volunteer realationship, i want to know them, i want them to know me, and i want to help them..But GOd please help me to bring down my barrier..

5) better relationship with my brother

I find this is a prayer i make every year. God help me to have patience and more love for my brother. Help me to understand him better, help me to relate to him better, and God open up his eyes to seeee.

6) Building stronger bonds with my LG and Shep

Well, we're still realatively new, i wanna avail myself more to my LG mates and hang out with them more. God help me help me to be more deep and relational, help me to find the courage and openess to share abt my life more.

Also a stronger r/s with my shep..heh:)

7) Going to the gym at least once a week and sleeping at least 6.5 hrs

wanna have a healthy lifestyle.


Alright this is it for now..

i've been out of action for abt month..hahaha!!! i meant online action. well my com went crazy and refused to let me go online, so i din have time to get it fixed till recently. Seriously i should have gotten a laptop instead of a desktop, than sending it for repair would have been easier.. LOL oh wells at least when i send it down to IBP i had someone who accompanied me, w/o which my journey would have been a boring one and one which i think i'll struggle in LOL. Thankew Ruiz for coming with me even though it was last minute and uber far, but i enjoyed the time spent with you. yeah!!! we may not be shepherd and sheep anymore but we are still friends heh:)

Studying with Lili was awesome!!! i managed to achieve many things which i think if i'm left by my own, i'd probably won't achieve that much.. Yea so thankew Lili for studying with me:)

ah..and i went to have lunch with wugui at IMM aft my paper last friday, haha!!! been such a long time since i stepped into IMM, ate at subway..lol i couldn't fin my way there. After that i took the IMM bus to IBP to collect my CPU..hehe.. yea so now am back in cyber space..i am here to torment the world..lol

ahhhhhh wellls....i think i'm useless i can't cut stuff properly cuz am scared i'll cut myself, am scared of climbing the ladder or height, cuz i scared i'll fall off, am scared of lighting a fire cuz i scared i'll burn myself. I remember last time in sec schoool there's this subject called D&T, i'll ask my friends to operate the machines for me cuz i scared i'll buff my fingers, or drill a hole in my own hand, or cut my fingers away.. so now u know why i choose Accounts instead of F&N and D&T...oh yah i scared to operate the sewing machine cuz i scared i'll sew myself...my conclusion I AM useless..

3 months of working at CPF is now over..haha!!! now when i think abt it, its kinda the first place that i actually really enjoyed working at..lol.. guess apart from the friends i made there, why i enjoy working there is cuz at least the forms that i'm processing/keying i know that somewhere out there it impacts someone, and if i dun do it properly it'll affect the company. In some sense am given some power to decide how much work i want to do and at what pace. i'm glad that my supervisor trust me enough to do sth for her, which if not done properly it'll sorta have to cause them to do it again. so yea..

So now that i stop working there le think i'll miss my friends there like pao, ro, clement, jon and siti..the ppl i talk crap with, zi hai with in office and lunching.

I went to watch My sister's keeper last friday, i rather enjoyed the movie, it was kinda sad. Something to learn from the movei, learn to let go of things, listen to what the person wants. oh and the person sitting next to my mum fainted in the movie, but we din know till the end of the movie, thank God there were some nursing students in the cinema or else..hmmm..but anyway we called the ambulance la, so think the girl is fine.

I AM STUCK.....






hahaha!!! not in the toliet bowl laaaaa...
i was stuck with my assignment, dunno what to write.. oh wells after thinking long and hard i finally thought of what to write..

i went to Hog's Breath ytd for dinner with my mama, sister and keith..keith drove us there..lol the jam in cte is like........
the food there is good..but i think sometimes they are quite in consistent in the food..sometimes its nice, sometimes its not...just nice ytd was nice, so we were satisfied..it was my third time there.

went for hope kids last sunday for their children's day service, seeing and hearing the children's choir is just so sweet and endearing..
haha!! the thing is i dun dare to go near kids, cuz i think they are violent and noisy and uncontrollable..but then we have to invest in their lives..hmmmm..i think its a challenge to wake up early on a sunday morning, lol...i shall give it some thought..

when i came home today, my mama gave me a surprise by telling me she got me A*mei's concert tickets (30th Jan at the indoor stadium) and its the most expensive de.. omg i was like soooo happy la..haha!! can't believe it la..gonna watch her concerts 3 times in 3 years..woohoo awesomenesss!!!! yay!!! I AM SO HAPPY!!!!!!!! lalala..you shld have seen me when i first heard the news..heheeee..

helllo!!!! haha!!! yeah...i am back to bloooooggggggg.....

Work this week was enjoyable though me and my colleague's workload had increased when another colleague quitted..despite this i was kinda happy and had a few instances of zi high-ness in office which rarely happens(in my other jobs).. Think as i work in CPF or work more i kinda begin to see things in a new light..like i begin to find joy in work..lol (How did this ever happened).

Was serving ytd, mixed the instruments..as i think back, the journey in sound had not been easy or rather a smooth one. Met alot of obstacles, had bad comments, had good comments, setbacks.. i remembered crying a few times as i served, can't remember what for, i rarely cry, so when i do it means its something really huge, or sth i feel really unjust (sth like bu fu qi that kind of thing), i remember being frustrated with myself, being irritated with ppl, being grumpy, having bad spirit, being tired. But above everything else i remember the joy i feel when i serve God in sound, i remember the passion i have for this ministry, i remember the satisfaction i get from serving, i remember the ppl i serve with and the ppl who have taught me much, i remember the many blessings from serving, i remember the LOVE that is shown, i remember the care and concern ppl showed, i remember the precious relationships built, i remember the scene of ppl crossing the line..

as i think, i thank God for placing me in sound, i thank God for growing me, i thank God for sustaining me, i thank God for believing in me, i thank God for placing ppl in my life..

i seriously think i'm a complete genius...
i'm such a genius that i forgot to bring my handphone out and i forgot to bring out my wallet too..argh..today is not a good day for me..
and another thing i was ordering mixed rice, i tot the veg was kang kong, but it was spinach, and i can't eat spinach..so in the end i din touch my vege at all..damn sad..

Think its been quite some time since i last blogged..
haha!!! oh wells am a lazy blogger and blog only when there's a need or feeling..

Well the first round of testing the new system at work is ending today..haha!! the next round will start about 2 weeks ltr..neways i found out my bosses are nice people.

Neways i think its cool that one of them is serving in her church as well, and we kinda chatted over email abt what we do in church.. haha!!! she quite Gong shi gong ban de..at work its all serious stuff. aft work or out of office we are friends..so got to know her a little better. yea!! I hope i'll be able to help her too..heh:)

anyways i went for my op or rather procedure last week..it was an extremely painful process at the end of the first round i was tearing at the end. I tot it was ending le, but den the chief came in and found out that there's a sound that's not supposed to be there sounding, he did a check on me and realised that the machine was positioned wrongly or not accurately. so he adjusted the machine and i went through the second round, the second round wasn't so bad, he kept the energy level constant and this round was shorter compared to the first one.

Aft the whole procedure i had back aches for abt 3days, its kinda the after effect of the procedure..


oh yah did i say am blogging in the office now..lol
gotta end here, work's coming in soon.. ITS FRIDAY!!!!!!!

alright in my previous post i said i had to go for my doc's appt earlier. And guess what the news wasn't bad neither was it very good. I just have kidney stone, but its ok all i need to do is go for some shockwave treatment thingy. yea..thank God..phew..

After a few years of not watching the ND parade, i watched it today and i think wah..not bad ah this year's one..i think my favourite part of the parade is the going through time tat one where got the performances from the diff times and also another fav part is the Wei Lian sang with Gayle..quite nice.

Played reverse catching today, it was fun and tiring...gosh tqj you can really run.. haha!!! the cg came to me hse today to cook for DK and have lunch with him to celebrate his bday..we like went ard NP like mad trying to find him..lol..

uber sleepy now..but i gotta do me project..:(

well...in my last post i was sick..and here i am sick again..darn..this sucks it has barely been a month and am sick again. hais..immune system what has happen to you????

here's some updates, i've started working at CPF board le about 2 weeks ago...well my department is nice.. hahah!!! my supervisor is a very nice lady and my bosses (by this i mean my 2 managers) are quite nice and rather young too, though i have not worked with them much..mayb next week den i'll know..

school has started too..well and the craziness begins..projects submissions again..haha!! OB was kinda interesting, marketing was fun and stats was boring..LOL..i made some pretty nice friends..and the interesting thing is that we don't mix ard in class much, but we only mix around when we are going out of school where we'll get lost.. the thing is i don't have much classes in HQ where i know my way around better, but i have classes in SP and NP where the place is big and everything looks the same to me..

went for my x-ray on tues, the doc injected me with some liquid, think i bled quite alot cuz they had to wipe my hand a few times after they took out the needle...now think there's a small bruise..hahah!! i could see my veins..u know the green line thingy it was like super obvious kinda scary. now cannot see le..phew..

got a phone call from the hospital ytd telling me that my doc wants to see me today, but i can't, so my appt is tmr aftnoon instead..my supervisor and mama tells me that if the hospital calls and wants to see me earlier den the fixed appt it means that they have some bad news for me..man i am damn scared and worried now. I have no idea what to expect..i am hoping really hard that its not bad news..

I AM FREAKING FREAKING FREAKING SCARED SCARED SCARED!!!

i have decided to blog after a long while, wellllll..haha!! the sick bug caught me last week. Coughed like mad..lol have to wear mask haha!!! and here's the photo of me wearing the mask.lol i look like some person planning to kill/rob someone..

haha!!! now i am feeling better...alot of phelgm though..haha!! damn disgusting.....oh wells went for a job interview ytd at MOM..hehe..din really felt like a interview though, they were doing it like we've got the job le.. My agent called me this morning to tell me and my friend that we've got the job. haha!!! joke la..i hope the job is good, the ppl ard is good and the supervisor is nice..

Think i've got to stop doing the domestic helper job le..so sad..oh wells what to do i need more cash flow, at least help my mama a little..

think this year we spent alot of money on medical.. sianz..

I pray my immune system will be stronger.

last week must have been the most frustrating week of the year for me..had to settle all my school stuff..lol i rather not talk about it..

anyways i slept with good news ytd that i got my subsidy!!!! Thankew God.
also havta thank my sis and keith for helping me sia..

CAMP IS COMING!!!!!!!!! its this friday!!! omg!!! so fast..

went to celebrate stef's bday ytd..haha!!! and my friends told me that i can write "Amelia's series of unfortuate events".. LOL cuz i was telling them my misfortunes when i was younger..

let me tell you a few,

1) when i was in primary 3 or so, normally my maid would come down and pick me up aft the school bus drops me off near my block. One my mama decided that i can come up on my own without my maid coming to pick me up, that night i was very excited cuz it's the first time i go home myself, so i started running in the carpark to reach home faster and i trip and fell banged my teeth on the floor, as you can guess my mouth bleeded like mad. Thus the chip on my front teeth. Yes go on laughing at me..oh wells from then on my maid come down to pick me up everyday until the day she went back.. lol

2) again in primary school or so, i was going out with my mama to my aunty's or uncle's place for bbq or steamboat. My mama asked me to carry the empty water container the kinds you use when you go out have bbq. so anyways she was walking in front, walking quite fast, so being young and having short legs then i ran aft her a little and yes again i tripped and fell, and my leg sorta like glided on the floor. the wound was kinda big and painful. It was on the carpark floor, the container glided a little too. So my mama turned back and scolded me for being clumsy and checking whether the container got spoil anot, seems like she cared more for the container then me..lol no la in the end she help me wash the wound and put the yellow color lotion thingy wghen we reached my aunty's or uncle's hse.

3) this time i upgrade liao become secondary school. Think i was about sec 1 liddat, was playing basketball with my friends. playing quite hiongly, the ball was flying out i chionged to get it but den hor i din see that the bench was there by the time i did, i couldn't stop and i was running super fast, the most sway part was there's a guy sitting there so to avoid hitting him i had to siam and so my stomach area or sth hit the handle of the bench and my knee hit the leg of the chair. The result is i had 2 big bruises that day. All the guy fault, sit there make me cannot break my fall better instead make me worse..lol.

4) again in secondary school and also playing basketball with a bunch of friends. My friend was shooting, and she missed. My friend and was trying to get rebound, in the end it went out of our reach so we ran aft the ball and we tripped over each other so in order to break my fall and not land on top of her i landed in a very weird way and so i sprained my ankle, it was sooooooo painful la.. worse part was i had to walk home. on my way limping home this aunty came to me and say you sprained your leg ah, try reaxing your leg and shake it to loosen the vein or sth.. so i listened and tried, it din really work cuz mine wasn't the vein that kanna. When i reached home i called my father, he made an appointment with the tie da and came to pick me up immediately. when the doc was massaging or rather rubbing my leg, he did sth and i shouted and started crying cuz i was sooooo pain, in the end i couldn't run or do any strenous activity for a long time. haha!! had to stop going for netball, neways my netball cher was very good to me, haha she treated me to a sandwich and drinks once.

i shall stop here..it stills hurt to think abt this..hahaha

i have a sudden urge to blog, so i shall do it..
I'm having a bad throat now, on monday it felt worse. But now my throat feels like its being wrapped in some plastic sheet and trapped behind a wall..the feeling is terrible..its like its stuck somewhere and cannot force out. and i realised i can't talk over a long period of time or i'll start losing my voice and have trouble talking. Feeling so tired now, think i used up all my strenght talking lol..(not true) its cuz i woke up uber early today.

oh wells i am now at a loss for wat to do...i need to consult my big daddy

i shall blog till here

I wonder where have the motivation to blog has gone to?? hmmmm..
anyways this sentence from a song has been stuck on me ever since i heard the song, the sentence goes like this "when no one seems to understand, I Do" thus the msn nick...
so when no one seems to understand, who does. Would anyone understand even if u explain. As i watching a TV drama i line went like this, You don't understand the pain you're putting everyone through, den the person replies back if i told u how i feel and what i want would u understand what i am going through.. Everyone wants someone who understands them, but den in the limited world, who is the one person who truly understands. Even your loved ones, spouse, mother, father, sister, brother cannot understand u fully. So the question remains, who can understand u fully. And the song goes on and say i knit u in your mother's womb and called u by name.. now we have the answer..the one who knew us before we were formed, before we knew him. The best parent, lover, friend anyone could have.. Decipher it yourself..