i practically stayed home and nuah today..hahaha 's been long since i last did that man..oh wells..this week's gonna be the last week of school before we proceed on to our study break. i've been looking forward to the exams, dun ask me why, i just do..perhaps its a sign for the end of the semester and to the start of the semestral break.

i've been thinking...

If i dun update i think wu gui will kill me..hahaha

Yes i got my A*mei latest album le..hahaha happy, got it ytd after getting a call from the shop. my sister bought me A*mei's concert tix as well, double happiness..

my mum bought me the new Harry Potter book too..hahaha!! actually supposed to borrow from my cousin, but my mother dunno why bu shuang my cousin, decided not to borrow from her le and bought the book instead..-_-'''

oh and as of now for my projects am oni left with compensation, this week was super tiring, spend so much time in school, waking up early everyday, to do proj, dies..tired until got headache..
i almost died in all the presentations..except for whp, i kinda had fun..hahaha!! i was the tai chi master..hehe tai chi anyone??

oh and i had rashes, i went to the doctor within 2 weeks for 2 separate reasons..spent a total of $48..i shouldn't have waited so long to see the doctor..anyways my record for see the doctor is 2 times in 2 days crazy right.. one time each day..

ooh and Elvin came to NYP last week..omg he's so handsome...hahaha

the message today was barriers to trust, when i first heard it, for a moment there i was thinking of Customer Relations..hahaha!! ok..further into the message i reflected upon my life, and i realised indeed i dun trust people easily even those closer to me, somehow there's the barrier somewhere, guess am afraid to trust someone and in return get hurt, its like an unspoken fear.
den i realised trust is the most important thing in not only in my walk with God but also with friends. another thing i realised is how superficial are my friendships with people, my feelings and thoughts are never made known. why? pride? fear?

i am very sleepy now....oh wells am blogging in school now..
oh wells having meeting now, but 2 members late, honestly i dunno wat are we gonna do..so here i am blogging and doing my own stuff..
updates of the past week or since i've stopped blogging..
well, projects had been hectic, have not been able to find time to go out with good frens except once or twice. hahaok i shall end here for now..i'll cont ltr

my blog had been collecting dust for days..
hahaha!! oh wells..
time for some updates..i watched transformers and Harry Potter this week..
omg transformers is damn nice lar..i was so entertained by the movie, its quite funny also..hahaha..
Harry Potter was quite a let down, guess i kinda expected more.

celebrated Jacina's bday ytd too..went yuki yaki..hahaha totally enjoyed myself..each of us haf our preferred food there..i shall post up some photos another day..hehe
we took many crazy fotos as well..hahaha

oh went to watch dim sum dollies today..damn funny, its really worth the money sia..it was great, pam oei, selena tan and emma yong are great actress..wow..oh am not advertising for them..hahaha

oh man i love playing daytona with friends, it kinda reminds me of my secondary and primary school days, the days of the old arcade in J8, the times that were spent there playing daytona, some jet skiing game and air hockey, and of cuz games to collect points to redeem something.. this has brought back fond memories of my childhood..hahaha!!

the day today was spent with, jia, aloy, bear, girl and chicken egg(who joined us at a later time).
the 5 of us excluding chicken egg went of Huili's school flim screening, i enjoyed wacthing vids made by the students. Some of them left quite an impression in my heart.

After the screening, had meeting, that's when chicken egg joined us, neways i guess i learnt quite a few things today, there's more den tat, i guess my perspective was widen today, the preparation involved is more den i imagined, thank God for you guys.

hahah!! going wataaa hse tmr. she's cooking yayness..

looking forward to this week:
catch up with ruiz
minops cg at sentosa
svc

yea! am back from camp!!! it was really awesome! it was a great learning experience.
hahaha!! yea..though was busy going around making sure everything is going great, i enjoyed every moment of it. Serving with the team in this camp has brought much laughter and i thank each and everyone of you.

i need to learn to deny my rights

feeling kinda sleepy now, was sleeping after bathing, when i was rudely awaken by the return of my bro and sis, and by the barks of tyrant and qiqi..
yay!! qiqi is back!!! she went for a operation, she was at my sister's fren's hse..cuz cannot put her in my house when tyrant is around..
oh wells..conflict is happening again..

hahaha!! yay!! my 2 weeks termbreak is finally here..
but like not 2 weeks break sia..the 2nd week chionging proj..so to be exact its 1 week break nia..
hahaa!! oh wells..at least i can enjoy one week.. yeah!! and i can go for CAMP!!!
totally looking forward to it sia..a time of meeting God, a time of fellowshipping..and a time w/o having to think abt projs..yeah..
oh wells..so many things to talk abt..but the blog is not so private to do it..haiz..i just hope dat i know to handle this situation well..it just sucks..haiz..

its been quite a few days since i last updated..been busy..
Hopefully IB is done for now..or not i'll juz die
for now HR resume is done..am now left with CRM script and WHP..
I still dun understand why the school let us take WHP and still have exam for it..completely retarded dunno how they gonna test us sia..
haiz..stupid class politics..as per normal it doesn't feel like we're in a class..still dun understand why they dun like(bu shuang) us.. childish...
everything is juz so lame in my class..why why am i in this kind of class?!?

hopefully i can finish my crm script by tonight den tmr onwards i just focus on WHP..

everything is not the same anymore...

feelings, does it matter now..

proposal is done.
now left CRM journal, CRM ICA2 script, IB ica 1 project and presentation, WHP report..(these are due the week before term break)
hahaha!! yea..crazy life of school is starting all over again..

neways thank God my sister helped me alittle in my proposal, if she din, i wouldn't have finished it so quickly..yep..
thank God for the service on sat, for sustaining me thruout the day.
one thing am very happy abt, was told by jia tat my mix has improved and recording sounded nice..yea..


Been feeling rather tired lately, chiong school work too much le..
i am determined to do better..
i know i can do better and much more.

i seriously dun feel like doing my proposal which is like due on friday..argh..no motivation and inspiration to do..i just dunno how to form my sentences..the ideas juz comes once den no more..oh..man...
i think for the many weeks to come until the last week of school, i'll be like super busy, gonna have project meetings almost everyday in school..hahaha!! its gonna be crazy..

did i tell u i was like a zombie ytd, super blur and i almost slept in tut..oh man..whatever my frens and tcher said was a blur to me..

crap is wat am feeling now..argh..

ok..i shall edit my templates aft i post this..
i felt so abandoned..oh wells..

neways i had napfa test ytd, i almost died..now am suffering the side effects of not exercising for so long and suddenly do napfa, muscle pain all over..oh man..

had a call on thurs from Jia to takeover for her today for sound as she's not feeling well, felt really nervous, was quite unsure if i cld do well this week, had to rush a school assignment that's due on monday and had napfa test, scared i will be too tired and cannot deliver my best, but thank God that my tcher postponed the deadline for the assignment to friday, so i din had to rush to finish the assignment on fri =)
had a heartattack this morn when i received one of my crew's msg tat he can't make it today as he had fever, Thank God mel was able to help me for 1st svc. phew..

sometimes i wonder wat am i doing,
sometimes i wonder why do i even bother,
sometimes i wonder i just wonder...

yay!! hee:) my new com has finally come, it came last tues...ultimate shuangness...hahaha!! dunn haf to use my bor's or sis's com again, no need to fight with them le..
yea..school's been going on for 2 weeks, going to 3 weeks le..time to chiong projects and ICAs le.. God help me to haf good time management skill and to be disciplined to do tutorials and assignments and not be distracted by the things around esp by TV and playing game
one thing am very happy about is that I can go for camp full time, usually oni can go part time oni.. yea!! I am so looking forward to the 2 weeks break which is in abt 1 mth and the semestral break in abt 3 mths time

i am determined to improve in skills, i shall not be stuck where I am now. Bringing the team another lvl higher.

The experience in ytd's Parent's day svc was awesome, many things i've learnt, how co-ordination between us and the drama ppl is impt.
Was so tired aft both svcs ytd, but i felt Joy among the tiredness i felt.

today's only the second day of school yet much has happened..it sucks like seriously..
guess i reacted in the wrong way..would u have reacted differently?
I will not apologise for how i reacted.
But now am glad it has been resolved..
i'm not angry with u guys, i ignored u guys today cuz i felt it was the right thing to do at that point in time..
Now you've seen the other side of me (*the angry side i meant) hahahaha!!
I really feel very silly for crying in the bus..juz cldn't hold back any longer..

school has started..oh man feels kinda good to start school..well..i have a new motivation to go to school now..hahahaha!! my lecture group got 1 french and 2 german guys, good looking guys..my goodness..so handsome..
first day of school's kinda good, one of my lecturer was involved in an accident, hopefully she'll be back nxt week.. We got Miss Diana Tan as our lecturer and tutor again..someone familiar in this sem..but why no martin hang..why why why?!? hahahhaa!!!

Went to sentosa ytd with my colleagues hahahaha!!! took quite alot of fotos.. played the luge, its fun lar and the skyride is so nice, the view from up above is juz fantastic..
guess i'll miss them quite alot, hahahaha!! ah boon's ninja turtle, zhou tai's careful! I had a bowl of bitchy for breakfast shirt..hahahaha!!! and all the squeezy rides out to lunch..

yeah!! 4 more days to the end of attachment..can't believe its coming to an end, now i understand why adults always say studying is much better den working..am kinda excited about going back to school, seeing my friends again..yay!! this sem's timetable is kinda good as i dun haf school on wednesdays though each day is kinda packed with lessons, still am thankful for this timetable, dun haf any super early classes, yeah..means i can sleep more..haha!!

kinda amazed to how i've bonded with my colleauges even those not in my department, they are not really my colleauges but friends. heard from them i'm the noisest attachment student they had..hahahaha!!! oh wells.. guess they'll miss the noise i make aft am gone..

You Are An ENTP

The Visionary You are charming, outgoing, friendly. You make a good first impression.You possess good negotiating skills and can convince anyone of anything.Happy to be the center of attention, you love to tell stories and show off.You're very clever, but not disciplined enough to do well in structured environments. You would make a great entrpreneur, marketing executive, or actor.

What's" Your Personality Type?

i've known you for my whole life, but it feels like i dunno u at all..
we see each other everyday but do u really know me, understand me?

am down with a throat infection..good time to stay home and rest..
guess haf been going out too much esp for the last 2 weeks..craziness

went to minds last sat with the group..had so much fun. and it was a good time spent with them..
svc was truly ministering..was at backstage, truly amazed and touched by God's love and his sacrifice. Went for my brother's svc on friday, well it was a simple svc, done very simply, i felt ministered.

this week quite happening hahaha!! met up with many ppl..had one of the best birthday this year..hee..my colleagues are so sweet..oh wells..dinner at fish and co was good..
ok attachment is gonna end soon..yea..in abt 27 more days..den its back to school again..kinda looking forward to it..though there's gonna be many assignments..
hee:)

received my results on monday..quite disappointing, but still am thankful, cuz at least i din fail, and i gave my best during this exam, so yea.. managed to maintain my GPA..
working has been tiring this past week or so..for this week..always feel like sleeping..

was serving last sat, felt satisfied and fulfilled..
went to partyworld on sat, had a blast and a great amount of laughing..

meet ups to look forward to:
meeting with ruiz
outing with family
meeting with WC and gang
meeting with carol and lin

it's been a long time since i last updated, oh wells..hahaha!! lazy..
guess i quite enjoy my attachment in mayer, though it may be far from my house but the ppl there are nice, my supervisor there is nice too..am thankful for being posted to that company. another 8 weeks more to go.

an update on what i've been doing, well i almost got drunk ytd night while drink with my bro at home, he made me vodka mixed sprite, he poured about half a cup of vodka(absolut vodka), i was very high aft drinking it...hahahaha!! and i talked alot but still sober

hahahah! slept in today till 11, feels good sia, super long nv sleep so long le..hahahaha!! went ktv with my sister today..hahahaha!! we sang for 5 hrs, sang till super shiok..hahahaha!!

oh so happy, was on duty ytd, at foh, feels good to touch the foh mixer, its been a long time since i mixed. thank God the problem tat the mixer had on thurs did not happened ytd. phew..

ipp has started, my office is at changi north, thank god there's the company bus that will fetch us in to the office at tenah merah. guess wat dept i've been posted to..i got posted to the accounts dept..hahahaha!! now am keying in stocks in spare parts, like doing inventory. they have 4000 over of different kinds of spare parts. it's actually quite fun, but very tedious to the eyes..
most of people in the office are ladies hahaha!! suddenly i feel so young.. oh wells, still dunno all the ppl there yet and still feel kinda shy talking to them (*hard to imgaine right?)

ok the good news is i might not need to work every sat (*keep praying for me peeps).
am praying hard i don't have to work this sat.

was in terrible pain ytd night, the side of my stomach was hurting so badly, the worse part was no one was at home.. tried to eat the chinese pills for tummy aches but it doesn't work, tried calling my bro but he din answer, tried calling my mum but she's still on the plane, ate painkiller, tried callling keith, on the 3rd try she picked up and i asked her to buy gastric pills, tried sleeping but couldn't.
spoke to God and he moved. cuz normally painkiller does not work on stopping the pain for this particular kind of pain, it took effect last night and the pain subsided..and i slept soundly.


things am looking forward to:
-valentines date with the wam ladies
-steamboat at puay's
-cny

exams is like finally OVER!! yay!! rejoice with me..
can say the exam week was like a torture for me..am so glad its over and thankful.
celebrated the end of exmas last friday with wataa, jh and lilian at bugis sakae, oh my how we ate and enjoyed ourselves.. was supposed to join the pt3 peeps at ecp, haiz, my headache came again. prone to headaches nowadays..
anyways IPP starting tmr, kinda nervous..don't know what to expect tmr. i hope the supervisor's nice..hahahaha!! i still have not met the other person coming to the same company as me..hahaha!!

ok i've decided to post today..
the exams so far are alright, confident to pass..hahaha!! so now its 2 down and 3 more to go.
oh man am like down with flu now, got it on sunday night, wasn't that bad ytd, it became worse today, haiz stubborn me refuse to take medication ytd..
feeling terrible now, with the block nose and occassional headaches..

i got my IPP posting ytd, and found out my pay, location of the comapny and my working hours today. Guess where's my office...its at changi north, i checked with the bus directory, it'll take me abt 1.5 hours to travel there -faints- imagine doing that for 3 mths. the worse part is i'll be working 5.5 days:(

ok i shall stop here or i'll never stop ranting..
sleeping soon too..

i shall not post anything for the next 2 weeks.
Am having my study break now, can u imagine my exams is in 1 week's time.
ok, ytd was quite an emotional day for me, first time ever. Guess only those who saw will noe...played citadel for the very first time ytd, it's quite a fun game..quite interesting. hahaha!!

hee:) studied today with ruiz aft cg today, i enjoyed the talk with her. Feels good talking to her. and as crazy as i am she understands me..

Oh one thing i'm so thankful for, is abt my finiance test, as i typed in one of my entries i screwed up, but when i got back my results, guess wat i did not just pass but i got an A. I was expecting that i would just pass, but when i saw wat i got i was shocked, happy and thankful.

from tmr onwards i'll start to study like never before, this will be my first time studying so hard for exams, God i pray for your wisdom to be upon me as i study, help me to be focused and not get distracted.
I told myself i must study hard this year.. my aim is to haf no C's or D's or F's..

got back my efma test results today and as expected(*in fact it was above expectations) i passed by a few marks.. oh wells its better den a fail..I always forget to study in detail one of the parts..haiz..

on wed, my classmates came to my hse to play mahjong..hahaha!! funny. oh wells, whatever happened in the house shall stay there. shhhh...
went to soupspoon with ruiz..oooh..the soup's nice..hahaha!!

anyways had hr seminar today, i was bored..slept during the seminar, even when am awake i wasn't paying attention also.

exams are coming..2 more weeks..i've found my study partners, byut dunno if they want to come out everyday to study anot..

i haven't been posting decent posts lately, oh wells wat to do no inspiration..
hahahaha!! neways had my finance today, i kinda screwed up, i multiplied the wrong figure and the most amazing part is that i made that same mistake in a test last friday, like how smart can i get..so intelligent rite..oh my really felt like slapping myself silly, i shall not make the same mistake again in the esams, this is really a lesson i learnt the hard way. well am able to pass the paper but not well. so i won't be expecting much from this test and efma which was last friday's paper. Now am left with one more ICA and the exams will be next, surprisingly am kinda like looking forward to the exams though am like so not prepared for it. I should be starting revision soon, and am now looking for study partners to study with me during the study week or even next week. So peeps if u wanna study out during this period call me!! HAHA!!

Oh on a lighter note went for lunch at J8 today with wataa! and Jh(xiao wu Gui de da wu gui), ate at KFC, oh man its been quite some time since i ate there and since i had my lunch on weekdays outside of school..oh my imagine eating school food for like wat 3-6 mths, no offense to sec school students..anyways aft eating we went to popular, we had the sudden urge of trying our luck (rather it was me and jh that wanted to try) on taking of the PSS cards. The first time i took i got handsome boy, den get another pack also have him (but with diff pose), wataa din believe i so lucky, so to prove that i haf the lucky hands, she asked me to buy another pack. And i got him again with another pose, hahahaha!! i went out of popular 3 times laughing each, boy i had fun irritating her..hahahaha!! classic sia..oh man thinking bout it makes me laugh too.. so paaiseh lor go in popular so many times.
Was on the phone with wataa, its kinda fun toking to her on the phone, pretty entertaining, interesting sister she have. oh man, the niaoness of her sis is like my younger brother. the better part is my brother will suan my friends also. hahahaha!!

watched sytycd finals today, oh my tian when they danced to the song sexyback it's so nice..Din really like the way they announced the winner though. and Channel 5 cut so many parts of the show off..

and anyways there's nth between us..hahahaha!!

my exam timetable..hahahaha!!

05-FEB-07 (MON)
10:00AM - 12:00PM
INTRO TO HR MANAGEMENT & DEVELOPMENT (WK 16/17)

06-FEB-07 (TUE)
10:00AM - 12:00PM
MARKETING MANAGEMENT (WK 16/17)

07-FEB-07 (WED)
10:00AM - 11:30AM
BUSINESS FINANCE (WK 16/17)

08-FEB-07 (THU)
10:00AM - 12:00PM
BUSINESS LAW (WK 16/17)

09-FEB-07 (FRI)
10:00AM - 11:30AM
ESSENTIALS OF FINANCIAL & MGMT A/C (WK 16/17)

am like stuying and waiting for my exams timetable to be out..
omg...3 more weeks..
i shall post my timetable up ltr

its bee quite some time since i blogged..hahaha!! oh wells been busy lately
am feeling quite crappy now..
how long since i went out to play w/o worrying abt projs?? hmmmm i have no idea.

anyways the start of school is quite crappy, staying back in school everyday. am starting to hate the com labs and e-plaza in school. hahaha!!

not fair not fair not fair!!

argh..

This year's Christmas is rather memorable..spent it with my family, it was great!!
Received the most prezzies this year with abt 7..hahaha!! but i guess the most happiest thing is that my bro really bought the PSP for me..and he bluffed me say he din buy it..ganged up with my mum and sis to bluff me too..kinda sweet, really feel loved (*not because he bought wat i wanted, but it was the effort and love put into it)

went to school today to hand in biz fin project, rain the whole day sia(*faints).. wanted top use the com in school, but just as expected no space in the lab, i think the school shld get more computers or open up more labs, so that students can use.

Will be going to chalet tmr..hee:) am so looking forward to it man..

am in school working as i'm typing this post. Staying in school for 13 hours straight..Super tired now, but i can't, i only end work at 10pm *faints*
Well the good thing is at least i can now finally do my project.
Anyways i've been working in school since Monday, assembling computers and helping in the reformating of the computers. Tmr coming back to school again to work, siansation, oh wells, bobian i've got to gather all the chances i haf to work this month.
The rain makes me just wanna sleep in and not go to work. hahaha!!

Monday i woke up telling myself, i've gotta give my best in work no matter wat i feel. yea and i found joy working for the past 2 days and of cuz today.

am looking forward to the meet ups tmr and friday..hee:)

sorry everyone i was feeling like crap ytd and today..was very affected by wat happened on friday..i'm sorry if i looked fierce, i tried my best to smile.. but no worries i'm feeling better now..
shedding tears is tiring..
however i still feel its unfair.
Oh wells mayb God has sth better for me.

my 2 weeks break has started, though it'll be as good as no break cuz of projects. but still one good thing is i dun have to wake up so early everyday.

help me to look at things in a new perspective.

played badminton and a little of table tennis today aft law tutorial, before law lecture..hahaha!! neways it felt great, din feel tired at all aft playing, in fact i cld still play somemore..hehe during hols mayb going wataa hse there to play table tennis.
today's playing of badminton and table tennis is a good letting loose time, it felt great, and i felt free from all the work we had to do..

i wanna go to the movies and relax..

you've got to stop treating us like thrash, flaring up for no reason when i am talking to u nicely..you've changed..

the craziness has started again..
having late nights everyday, thank God i get to wake up late tmr..cuz class start at 3pm..phew..
my body is getting weaker and i think am falling sick..hahahaha!!
anyways french oral presentation is over and i screwed up, said the wrong thing, but i managed to correct myself in the end..* according to my fren my mistake was an entertainment. oh and i got back biz finance today, i did better den expected. i tot i'll fail.

let me list down the projects i have on hand now before i stop

1) EFMA
2) Biz finance
3) ICT
4) HRM
5) Marketing mgt
6) Biz law

someone kill me pls..

EMOTIONAL BREAKDOWN

ok..i shall blog before proceeding to do my proj..
this week has been a stressful week..oh wells had HRM ICA on thurs, it was like wat my teacher said easy..i hope i can get a good grade..will be getting back results for efma and biz fin next week..

while doing proj halfway today, wataaa send me sth..cuz i looked stressed and i was feeling stressed, oh and she was just sitting 2 coms away from me..

this is wat she sent:
Don't grouch, don't frown.
Learn to lift your edges of your lips to a slight 20 degrees.
Which means that you have to SMILE!!
I hate to see your frustrated face...
neither i want to see you sigh...
cheer up..because there is nothing that you cannot complete...!
all you need is take a break, take a kit kat!!!

it was sweet of her to send me this, when i read it, it can't help but to put a smile on my face..hee:) so thanks again wataa..

am now in my new hse le..yay!!
am back in sweet Bishan..yayness..
anyways i had efma test ytd..hehe it was relatively easy, i din know how to ans the theory qns though, din study that part...oh wells..its alrite am still thankful.
Despite the buziness of this week, really wanna thank God for sustaining me. the many lessons you taught me and the many ppl u put in my life..
i may not be perfect or lovable but you still love me and think the world of me..thank you so much!!

svc today was refreshing, my life is yours. my soul is not my own.
develop my gifts more..
played pool today with val, ruiz and gwen, xinyi was studying and watching us play(*jia you xinyi) anyways i had fun with them. went home with ruiz and i saw ww, pw and yq..hahahaha!! they juz watched finish happyfeet..
aye miss chong! amelia is blessed to haf u in my life. :hugs:

ok am having proj discussion online now and am blogging now..hahahaha!! multi-tasking..

neways the purpose of this post is juz to vent my frustrations(not bcuz of proj but of sth else)..
SCREAMS!!! (*AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAaaaa
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!)

ok done..
argh..am still pissed though, argh dun bother

had biz finance test..ARGH...it was terrible, horrible!!
argh..i just feel like tearing the whole paper up!
Damn..i'm like so screwed lar..
The paper was super trickey lar, and i got cheated
lesson learnt study harder next time.
And i have 4 projects on hand now..hahaha!! i shall look on the bright side of life..
i'll only haf lesser time to play, lesser time to myself..
oh wells it'll be over soon..

amelia is unhappy by the fact that she'll have no holidays aft her exams next year..she haven't had a long break from school since april or so.. the longest break she'll ever get is 2 weeks, which she dun think really count cuz havta do projects. so she'll not have a long break for a year..how wonderful is that..ok enough of talking from a third person's view..well look on the bright side of life, mayb through this i'll learn more of the working life..

why does it have to be this way??

did backstage today tgt with mel.. i haven't really touched bs for quite some time, it felt refreshing today, there's still much to learn, challenges to overcome..
steps to take, puddles to cross.
traps to pull u down,
but there's always a hand there,
to lead u through the steps, across the puddles
and away from traps.

i found mixing was fun last sat..oh how i love the eq of the drums hahaha!! i got wat i wanted. hee:) i'm a happy girl..

i find that i'm slacking in my tutorials, how how how...ahhhh(runs ard room like some mad person). neways i'm having biz law ica this thurs and ict presentation on wed, biz fin and EFMA is next week and HRD is the week after.
i can't believe am in my 5th week of school already. hahaha!! this sem seems shorter, no wait it is shorter..hahaha!! sorry am quite nonsensical right now..

was working today, and i saw my favouritest nonsensical fren arthur wu..hahahaha!!
had ict rehearsal today too, hahaha!! got wataaa! to edit my script. hehe..she's like the editor of all our reports and scripts..

schoolwork aside..
i find mixing for 6 weeks has been a great experience, there were ups and downs however it was a great learning opportunity.

amelia learnt that communication is very impt between musios, singers, mm and soundcrew.
trust is also a very impt factor i guess, thats wat i think..its a personal feeling and i won't elaborate it here..

the very thing i love doing..

the sound box *well part of it hahaha!!

something funny happened today in e-plaza..hahahaha!! oh wells i guess oni jac and jh will noe what's it abt..hehe:P
yes this week has been crazy, however, the next 3 weeks or more will be worse, for it'll be filled with tests, presentations and projects. am still getting used to this crazy life. yes let me repeat am still getting used to this crazy life..i guess the craziness would be more if i dun have the printed tutorials that jac and lilian is doing. life is made easier with them printing the tutorial answers for us.
even if so i shall be diligent and do my tutorials too.

hmmmm..i shall attempt to post some pics now..so if u dun see any pics u'll know am unsuccessful..

ytd i went to Kranji War memorial for my NE project.
pple normally go there very solemn but when my grp members and me go there we very noisy..imagine we took 174 photos in the war memorial.
i'll try to upload some when i can..hahaha!!
somehow going to the memorial, in a way it brought in some feelings.

dun want to tok bout today..lazy..
pretty tired..

the craziness of my life have started.
the things that needs to be done is increasing everyday.
the stress lvl is becoming higher as the weeks pass.
the time for me to meet ppl is lesser.
tutorials that needs to be done everyweek.
the time spent in school is more den the time spent at home.
time spent staring at my lecture notes is more den the time i spent staring at the com and TV.
the time spent listening to lecturers and tutors is more den the time spent listening to my family members.
the times i see the ppl i dun like is more den the times i see my buddies.
tiredness is wat i feel most of the time.

finally am back to post..hehe..
went to Kbox on monday with jac, jh and lilian..hehe we had fun, i finally could sing hei se you mo properly..wat a difficult song to sing.. finally saw a noisy side to lilian(hahaha!!) neways she and jh very high, laugh like siao..and the three of us had fun disturbing jac..

Tues: i had made the decision to go to sentosa with ww, jh, hx, pw and hy last week or is it the week before.. and trust me it was a very difficult decision to make. i guess no matter wat decision i made you guys(both parties) wouldn't understand how i feel. You guys might hate me so am saying sorry.

all in all i had fun, hahahaha!! favourite past-time at the beach is juz soaking in the water, swimming around don't havta kayak or play volley.
din get tanned though :( oh wells..

today: stayed back in school after lectures, to have lunch and study in the library. i managed to finish my HRM and Biz Finance tutorials.i guess jac and me drived lilian crazy in the discussion room with our singing hahaha!! neways aft studying we went down to Food Junction and eat again, cuz hungry..hehe we are pigs. neways we chit chatted alot and gave lilian a educational talk on sth..can die sia..

i guess aft this week, every week will be filled with project discussions, mugging and doing tutorials.

neways am rather proud of myself cuz i did my tutorials, previously when i was in year 1, i normally never do tutorials de, the only tutorial i did was economics..hahaha!! i now want to be good girl..

hey to all people who are sick, rest well!! drink alot of water and dream of me and probably you'll recover faster..hehe jkjk but seriously rest well and take care!!

yea i am back..hahaha!!

choices choices choices..i hate making choices.
to choose between them OR them, if i choose either one, one will be unhappy. wat am i supposed to do?? argh..
nvm dun bother le, go with my feelings.
its so hard to please everyone.

oh my com is not tat cranky le yay!! PTL!!

my com crashed on me=( argh.. dun be puzzled why you don't see me much on msn, neways am in my school lab now..shucks lesson's till 8 tonight..sickening..
neways i got me my adidas bottle le, wahaha!! the one i've been eying for a long long time, i thought i wouldn't be able to get it in the color i want, but i got the color i wanted. hee=)

neways school school has started for 4 days le, projects and assignments are already coming in.
Had my first french lesson on tues, its a cool language, the sad thing is, i dun haf a french teaching me french but a chinese..=( he look like one lao ti gou..hahaha!!

this Sem's modules are rather difficult. i wonder how am i gonna survive. I wonder if am able to meet my goals for this sem..>.<

amelia is sick..
horrible..

Oh i kinda sprained my leg while walking to school today(*clumsy me)

I think am keeping alot of feelings in me..hmmmmm..
argh..

today is the start of school..hahaha!! well..in the 2nd hour of my second class of the day i zoned out..din register wat the cher was saying..gosh..i really pray my attention span will be longer next time..

went for the singers meet ytd to do sound..it was cool..am kinda inspired by them.
laughed alot ytd, craziness...haven't laughed tat much in a long time.

met xinyi today at jurong..oh my..its like a foreign land to me..gosh..ooh and i left my nike water bottle in mac, by the time i realised it was quite late le..saded.. oh wells to look on the bright its an excuse to buy a new bottle..hehe (i can buy the adidas bottle which i've been eying for some time le)

I am just not satisfied with my skills now..i know it's not just based on one time alone, but i've been seeing thruout the many weeks, i've rather been inconsistent. God i ask for your hands to be on me.
I'll strive to improve even more.
I thank you guys who have been teaching me and helping me to understand your instruments better.


neways school starting tmr..bleah..am actually quite excited for it..
first lesson tmr starts at 8am..woah..have to wake up quite early..i hope i dun sleep in class..
hehe will update more nxt time

ytd was the start of my self-proclaimed hols...hehe..
and i got to noe my new timetable ytd, it is horrible, packed like dunno wat lar, but the good thing is i heard we have alot of e-learning sessions.
ohhhhh..i went to Kbox with jacinta today, hehe..i totally enjoyed myself lar, she's good entertainer. I must say that her singing is quite good. we laughed so much ytd. oh and i have a new eye candy(am sure jac u noe who am talking abt).. *faints*
ohhh..and she helps me hit all the high notes..hahaha!! which i can't hit at all..and the remote control u use to choose all the stuff, niao me ytd..*angry* of all things to learn the remote muz learn from lilian..

harlow.......hahahaha!! juz felt like saying tat..oh wells..
my brother bought me my favourite disney character soft toy(*i'm so happy). its CHIP & DALE..they're so adorable..oh my tian..

neways MMD is OVER!! yay!! no need to stare at computer screen using img composer anymore and getting irritated with it and powerpoint..hahaha!! really thank God i'm able to complete it ytd. phew... and nxt week is self-proclaimed holiday!! u know why, cuz no need to go school as the presentation that was suppose to be on nxt tues was brought forward..and i asked my fren to pass up my assignment for me..wahaha!!!

Been rather tired this week...it was rather exhausting..
many things to do this week, haven't rested well too. my stomach is giving me problems again. dunno wat's wrong with it also.

Can say today's exp was rather horrible, din noe it was that bad..kinda sad and disappointed with myself..argh..so many things to take note of and to learn..

anointing flow.. take control

CS role play is now over..wahaha!! 1 load is now off the shoulder..
neways had to put on make up for the roleplay, hee:) many thanks to our make up artiste Jacinta..
it was a great experience(I meant the role play not make up), as i have great grp members, though we may have forgotten some of our lines, we still managed to pull through. and know all our scenes are linked, we din realised that till our teacher told us..hahahaha!! surprisingly i had fun with this project, alot of fun..

with cs proj out of the way, i have to concentrate on my mmd(*DIES) and study for the cs test which is tmr..oh yah i almost died on tues night when i realised i had to hand in my ps report the next day, thank God my friend asked me abt it, and i had my cher's number so i asked her, phew..i rushed home after work, quickly do wat i needed to do and rush my report..den i realised i lost my receipts, thank god can print from the festive team..hee:) so am saved..

ok..i shall get ready to go out to school and fight my battle with mmd le..

obstacle overcomed..no longer will i be overwhelmed and tempted by you..

aye!! yea..ok cs roleplay presentation is this wed..*nervous* pretty afriad that i'll laugh halfway through saying my lines, OMG!! neways had rehearsal ytd, oh my tian, we laugh like so many times lar, but alll in alll it was a good rehearsal, its amazing how much we can achieve even though we may sidetrack many times in our project discussions. i think no grp can achieve as much as us if they were to sidetrack as much as us..hahaha!! neways did i say this before I Love my Proj Grp, which comprises Jacinta, Jiahuey, Lilian and Ziana. A fun bunch of ppl to hang out with..

Oh yah, the biz etiquette class ytd was fun, the tcher is very interesting in her teaching, she has many stories to tell us, she is able to relate the stories to us. She reminds me of my favourite lecturer Miss Teo. hahaha!! they both same kuan one..hee:)

Ok let me now bore u with my experiences in doing sound on sat, i was very nervous on that day esp when the start of pm and svc was approaching, cuz i was gonna do alone, hahaha!! the experience was good. Guess i focused too much on the instruments and kinda neglect the singers. I really thank God all went well, except for some glitches with the soundtracks. but all in all it was a great experience

yay met my buddy ytd...hahaha!!
met xinyi too..wahahaha!! wanted to go mind's cafe, but when we went there it was full, saded can't play my favourite board game and drive xinyi crazy with my craziness..oh wells, so we settled at coffee club instead, i ate muddy mud pie and drank iced mocha vanilla. it was a time if sinful indulgence..
after coffee club, xinyi accompanied me to heeren to meet ruiz, oh i went bonkers outside heeren, i dun understand why but i juz went bonkers...hahaha!! oh wells..

amelia is a happy girl!! meeting up with a good fren and my buddy somehow makes me very happy.

yes!! amelia is no longer internet deprived!!
neways i miss going out with my buddy.
very long nv go out tgt or have dinner tgt le:-(
but its actually because of me, cuz work on tues and thurs. oh wells its ok, i shld be more free aft next week.

neways, been having project meetings everyday aft school, except on those days that i have no lessons. Well, the meetings has been fun, surprisingly we're not exactly rushing our projects. hahahaha!!
oh yah, personal grooming lesson was a bore, wasted my 3 hrs lar.
went to gelere ytd, hahaha!! ate waffer ice-cream with jia huey..ult shiokness, enjoying waffer ice-cream with a good fren.

I'm still adapting to life in my aunt's place, still can't get the time right for going to school, oh wells.. but amelia is a happy girl, i get to eat home-cooked food everyday. lalalala..

been thinking abt sth lately. will it affect us much? hmmmm...
i wanna try sth for mixing the snare drum, i wanna try adding reverb and delay to the snare mix see how it sounds, but somehow am afraid to try.. hahaha!! neways i tot of doing tat while listening to a song. oh wells.. 7 weeks!! here i come!!

been rather lazy to blog lately..hahaha!!
oh did i say i dun like my new class!! i dun feel like its a class, it feels like am attending lectures (*if u noe wat i mean). am thankful for the grp am in now and they are Jiahuey, Lilian, Ziana and Jacinta. i think w/o all of them i wouldn't even want to go for classes sia..am particularly thankful for jiahuey, my closest buddy in class, she's been the one who listens to my nonsense and making my life in school more colorful and vibrant( -_-").

i'll be moving out of my hse this sat :( sad..

was packing my stuff today. in another 10 days i'll be out of my hse(*boohoo)
neways as i was saying i was packing my stuff and i came across all my encouragement cards from my shepherds, sheeps and good buddies of mine.. it brought back much good and not so good memories into me. And am very thankful for all of them in my life.

to all shepherds i thankew for all the time and hardwork u gals have invested upon me, and for always being there for me in times of need for a listening ear, advices.

to all sheeps i thankew for bearing with me and it has definately been a great joy taking care of u ladies.

to all my good buddies i thankew for all the wonderful times spent with u all. and for listening to my nonsense and crappings. and for always being there listen to my rantings, you never know how much it means to me to haf all of u in my life.



anyways there is so many things i wanna do.

i can't sign in to MSN..boooohoooo..
oh wells anyways i forgot to list the good points abt staying in my aunt's place, hahahaha!!!
her place is near town its about half the time i take to travel to town now.. i'll have good food to eat everyday cuz my grams is an awesome cook, she cooks my favourite food, and i won't have to eat packet food(*YAY). tat's abt all the good points i can think of..

oh and today's the first day of all our workshops, it was alrite..Raymond Wong is not as boring as i thought he would be. Am still trying to get use to lessons again, aft all it has been like 5 mths since i had lessons and tests. hahahahahaha!!

Hide me now
Under your wings
Cover me
within your mighty hands

When the oceans rise
and thunders roar
I will soar with you
above the storm
Father, you are king
Over the flood
I will be still
And know you are God

yes when the oceans rise and thunders roar, i wanna be still and know that you are God. And not fix my eyes or focus on the problems or things around me.

Do i truly love the people around me?? hmmmmm..a qns i've been pondering since aft leaving Orchard.

i kinda miss the ppl in CSC hahahaha!! though it might be a torturous place but the ppl in there makes the place a better place.

I wanna make an impact in people's lives with the things that i'm doing. To deliver an experience and not juz an event.

watched the devil wears prada ytd with bee bee, hee:) omg the show is nice, the clothes the ppl wear is like PRETTY!! oh my tian!! hahaha!! neways apart from the movie, i had an enjoyable time with bee bee, am glad to found such a great fren.

my hse is like quite empty now, i got no dining table, my sofa is gone..it feels so empty and big.. moving hse soon, another 2 more weeks and it'll be goodbye. will be going to my aunt's place to stay though, i dunno if i can survive there for 2 months, the internet connection at her hse is like slow and costly, and i need the internet for my school stuff, die la..and its quite inconvenient to go to school from her place too. haiz..am still thinking if i should stay at my dad's place instead, at least his place has fast internet and its easier to go to school(*oni need to take one bus and the time taken will be like the same as now) oh and mayb if am "lucky" enough my father can fetch me to school. And if i stay at his place i can have more late nights too(cuz more freedom mah). Though my aunt's place is nearer to town, i can't reach home late, i guess the latest i can reach is like 10..(DIE!!).. tell me wat to do.. choose wat?? tag me to answer me (in a dilemma).
to stay at aunt's place or to stay at my dad's place?? (* my mum allows me to stay at my dad's if i want to)

metamorphosis is over(*phew)

neways zoo hunt is tonight..am rather nervous..first time doing for hope kids, it'll be a great experience.

tmr am meeting ermander and bee bee!! yay!!!
meeting piggy and mama too. so long never see them le..

neways let me tell u abt ytd, my heart almost stoped beating, brain stop working when the eguit got no sound, den when have sound got no distortion, den i realised no effects box, i felt helpless cuz i can't do anything, i can't run down, for there wasn't anyone with me at FOH. thank God for Simon, thank God he had his effects box in backstage and managed to help the eguit to have distortion(*phew).
I thank God the concert ytd was a success too.

ytd night as i was going home, i kinda felt upset over some things. As i replayed the happenings in my mind, i tot to myself could things have been done a better way. was caught in a dilemma too..

but now as i think back, i wanna thank God for all that has happened ytd, i thank God for mel, hannah and xueyong for serving with me ytd. they've all improved and am proud of them..

lessons started today, haiz...my gawd..i almost died in the two 2hrs lecture today..so bored..thank God Ms Cindy Soh's lecture wasn't as bad as the morning lecture..

argh..quite lazy to go school today haha!!

met jia today, yea, i enjoy the time spent with her.

oh and simon's way of laughing is funny, he can start and stop juz like tat..-_-"

yay meetin ruiz tmr..hahahaha!!
metamorphorsis on wed
and zoo hunt on thurs..

yay!! my mummy cooked my favourite soup today...HAHA!! its salted veggie duck soup *drools* good food today...hahahaha!!

neways!! CSC is over!! my gawd, do u noe how happy am i that its over?? on the last day i was like crazy crazy and crazy, i very long never been so crazy in school le, except during lunch time when i meet jiahui for lunch den i'll be high..hahaha!! neways we went pizzahut to eat, nice food.

played badminton today, hahaha!! am amazed that i pespired so much, haha!! i had so much fun today..

i am a happy girl..sound ytd was not bad, was quite stressed abt it..hahaha!! oh wells, am glad i have learn some things too..hee:)

yesh! this cannot go on any longer. I am determined to overcome this obstacle.
and it feels so much better now.
someone is watching over me and i noe it.

there's so many things i gotta grow in, i gotta learn to open up more.

visit a dear fren of mine ytd. it hurts me soo much to see her suffer lyk dat, but well the good news is that she's gonna get better soon!! yea!! *jumps around in joy*

i wonder wat's the feeling like to get drunk, haa..must be awful i guess, drank 2 cups of vodka mixed with rootbeer ytd, aft the 2 cups, my body felt super hot, hahaha!!

neways many thoughts have been going thru my mind lately, how i wished of many things.
i need someone to talk to, someone who hear my hearts cry, someone who i feel safe talking with.

been thinking alot abt my past lately...dunno why am thinking of it too...i realised how ugly i was last time, not physically but internally, i can't help but to think how stewpid i was for doing all the things i did..the way i spoke the unkind words to ppl. how dumb how dumb, the sucidal thoughts i had last time when i was still young but not so innocent..i can't help but to ask myself why why why..

was thinking abt my family too, how complicated my family bg is, there's more to it den meets the eye, if u think i was from a beautiful family u were wrong soo soo wrong.. it still amazes me to see where am i now..can u believe am now in POLY!! hahaha!! i noe u may say that am more fortunate den many out there, i dun deny that i am.
i think my brother has changed he's no longer the same as before, the bond is no longer there, even so with my sister, somewhere inside of me does not want to relate to my siblings anymore, its feels as though am avoiding them, why is it so, what is pulling me back?? it feels like i dun noe them anymore.

when i boarded the bus juz now after dinner, i saw this man who reminded me of my grandfather and how much i miss him!!

neways i feel we're drifting apart, in fact i dunno if we're ever close before..

i miss BM0503, all the crazy dudes!! FATTMOULD, is it juz gonna be this way, all going different ways and never meet up ever again??

Bonds are bulit but broken, so what's the use of buliding them when its going to break anyways. is this how friendships shld be like, if it is den i rather be alone. what happened to friends forever, they are juz but empty promises..

sorry for being to emo..

I had a blast mixing this week *eyes sparkle with delight*. i felt i did a great job last sat *gives myself a pat on the shoulder* hehe..
aft svc went to esplanade to celebrate simon's bday, hahaha!! oh wells got to noe him more thru what ppl said..hee:) was quite zombiefied aft svc. oh and we played one of puay violent games, it was quite fun, haha!!
oooooohhh, sunday was a wonderful day, went east coast cycling with ermander, bee and ting, *wo lao le* i cycled very slowly, hahaha!! trying to enjoy the scenery around me and the breeze blowing into my face, so din felt like cycling fast, if i did i think i'll be like dying from muscle aches now..
i realised we made alot of plans hahaha!! never thought that in the 6 weeks, anyone would haf bonded, but look. hee:) i hope this bond we shared will not stop aft CSC.

i think i've grown, been struggling with a certain thing lately, but i've decided in my heart not to succumb to the temptation am feeling. yes!! i noe thru this testing i'll grow to a new lvl.

how fast this week has passed, you know wat does that mean? it means in another 2 weeks i'll be out of CSC *jumps arund the room like some crazy person*

guess i'll miss saying this "hi good morning/afternoon my name is amelia, i'm calling on behalf of singtel to conduct a customer satisfaction survey on your last visit to the Hello! shop. This survey will only take about 5 mins of your time. May i proceed now?"

most importantly i'll miss the pple, its kinda early to say all these, but who cares. all the running aways from yanting and amanda..hahaha!!
oh wells..

*why dun u believe me?!?*

went for a ex-classmate's chalet on sunday, i had fun, had bbq. din cook at all, was served..hahaha!!cuz me and my other frens dunno most of the ppl there. so yea..but still i had fun, had 2 mahjong session, one during midnight, the other in the morning. celebrated my fren's bday aft mahjong. it was quite memorable. hahaha!! din sleep at all, went to Kbox, sang our hearts out, hahaha!! went home aft kbox, looked like zombie and i slept like a pig on the bus...first time i slept so soundly on a bus..hahaha!!

Went for cg before going for the chalet, what can i say, i felt refreshed during worship. and teaching. the extremist, which side are u on??

oh yah i went for the planetshakers concert, was quite disappointed in a way. i shall not comment much.

*beneath this smile lies sth deeper

Saying goodbye
It's never easy
Sometimes love
Is a fair weather friend
Just when you thought
It was forever
Your whole world
It comes to an end
You know I've felt like this
I've been there before
And there is one thing I know

It's better to love
Than feel the pain
Than to hide
Your love away
Cause I'd rather feel
I'd rather cry
It's better to love

I see you're hurt
And I know your reasons
Its only a matter of time
Before your heart can
Find sweet love again
And give you the courage to fly
You know I've felt like this
I've been there before
And there is one thing I know

It's better to love
Than feel the pain
Than to hide
Your love away
Cause I'd rather feel
I'd rather cry
It's better to love

Some people run away
Let love just fade away
And end up with nothing at all
It's better to love

I'd rather feel
I'd rather cry
It's better to love

It's better to love
Than feel the pain
Than to hide
Your love away
Cause I'd rather feel
I'd rather cry
It's better to love

Cause I'd rather feel
I'd rather cry
It's better to love
It's better to love

ytd was the first time in 3 weeks that i woke up after 10 am..wah...shiokness..
last friday and sat was more shiok, i've never had so much fun in a very long time..friday was spent with a dear friend of mine and sat spent with my cg.

wahaha!! sat we went to celebrate Ben's bday at marinabay. eat till we smelly..hehe -_-".
after eating we went bowling, if u see me play u can see how lousy i am. haha!! oh after bowling we went to the arcade and we played daytona!!! my favourite arcade game besides air hockey. so sad my car overturned alot of times. but still i had fun. oh and we walked to the mrt station. the journey was long, and i enjoyed myself walking back tgt with wyn my walking partner.

yesh!! Amelia is smiling again. am having a different perspective of work now. am thankful for that. seriously the feeling of hitting 20 completed surveys is quite nice. felt very accomplished.
the Singtel person is coming today to hear our call argh..i hope i get a good person to survey later, not a problematic one. hehe..

I made a promise never to settle
Why didn’t I keep it?
Cause I hated the heartbreak
Crying and cheating, the fooling around

I’m not missing you
I’m not going through the motions
Waiting and hoping you call me
I’m not missing you
You might have had me open
But I must be going because I got life to do
I know I’m usually hanging on
I used to hate to see you gone
But this time it’s different
I don’t even feel the distance
I’m not missing
I’m not missing you

No I can’t be with you
Cause I'm scared felt like I was falling when you left me
I can’t keep going through life
Unaware of what I missed
And the person I could be
Love's good when it’s right
And when it's left in your memory
All the times I let you down
I guess love will be nice for someone else's life

CSC is really commit suicide center..i guess working in a call center is really horrible, now its one profession that i will never consider going for an interview. have been dragging my legs to school for the last week and today. argh, having headache now. i still have abt 16 call to make before i complete the current list i have.

I have been rather quiet lately, dun feel like talking much..

got no feeling..

I JUZ WANT TO GET OUT OF THIS PLACE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ARGH!!! @$&%^*!^@&#*

i've decided to have another blog which will be private for me, wahaha!! i'll input there all my emotions and feelings, oh wells this blog will still be around, but of course i won't share deeply here.
i woke up on the wrong side of bed today, sianz, got screamed out of bed today, cuz my bro came home drunk and my mother ask me to go downstairs to find my brother's wallet, and one side of his shoe, kaoz was freakingly pissed lar. argh my beauty sleep gone just like dat. but neways i can't find his things, haiz suay sia..
neways CSC is equals to "commit sucide center", have been given extra workload ytd, i have to call like extra 34 ppl. argh.. watever, dun think i'll be able to finish it today..am like dragging my feet to school/work(watever u want to call it) everyday, i hope these 6 weeks faster be gone.

Haven't been feeling good lately, but somehow as i think abt the wonderful times i share with my frens and cg, it brought a smile to my face. Got reminded of the wonderful ppl i have in my life to share my woes and joy.

Today is my first day in CSC, oh wells we did role play today.
its quite fun but yet tiring cuz hafta keep saying the same thing over and over again for more den 20 times..talked till my mouth dry liao..
the worse thing is i haf to call my tcher tmr to do a role play with her, cuz she say my opening is too fast.*dies* I hope she doesnt give me killer qns tmr sia..
Haiz..aft going thru today, i realised how good BSU really is.
i miss that office of mine.

Today is my last day at BSU..hais..guess i'll miss room A302a..and the lingering presence of Miss Ong behind the admin table.

Neways PT3 though am not in ur grp, but it feels like i belong there..
Juz wanna say sth to leader and chicken.. won't be seeing them le..not in the same lecture grp..):

Leader: Oei am always around, dun cry yea..still can play with amelia, neways its been great having a great and caring fren like u..

Chicken: Norafiza Binte Mohd Basri!! hahaha!! previous owner, u and arthur good ah..suan me like some crazy person. neways knowing u in TEP is fun yea..dun forget me sia..i want ur songs

today is like emo day lar, so many ppl cry and first time i see leader cry, i almost died when she started crying infront of me (dunno wat to do). lesson learnt:never cry infront of amelia.
guess i'll miss yee shih and devi too, my two working partners. i'll miss toking to them.

The truth is tearing up my heart
I can't recognise this place
The endless road without a stop sign
Can't even find a stranger this time

Why am I still holding back my tears
In this loneliness there's nothing left to fear
Every chord still seems a wonder
How we could be together
Everytime I ask if this would be the last
Why am I still talking to myself
Hoping you will have the keys to my cell
Every song might calm the weather
But it just draws me deeper
How do I get out of this
I think~ I never will

A crystal forming in the eye
Maybe this would be the last
The winding path down my face
Till I begin to taste the bitterness inside

Why am I still holding back my tears
In this loneliness there's nothing left to fear
Every chord still seems a wonder
How we could be together
Everytime I ask if this would be the last
Why am I still talking to myself
Hoping you will have the keys to my cell
Every song might calm the weather
But it just draws me deeper
How do I get out of this
I think~ I never will I never will

pain is all am feeling now..
i feel so dumb, why din i see it coming, haiz all becuz of that i hurt myself.
yes..i fell down today while crossing the road to school, din see the bus turning in, and when i found out it was too late, my leg fell into the drain, now i got a big bruise and a disgusting looking cut.

neways other apart from my big fall amelia is a happy girl, cuz am juz happy..hahaha!!!

took leave today, am now at home. hahaha!! had a great sleep.

neways PEPPERLUNCH IS LIKE SUPER NICE LAR, thinking of it, is making me drool. haha!!

amelia is very tired this week, thank God i could still take leave today to rest.
Been rather busy in school lately with reports to do, ppt presentation..haiz.. at least there's stress reliever called puzzle fighter. playing with arthur can make me vomit blood though, ahh..hahaha!! but its fun to play and talk with him..
this is quite weird but i kinda miss the office..
ironically i can't wait to get out of the office and yet i miss it..ha!!

favouritest day of this week was monday and today.
monday met with ruiz aft school, had a great time with her and am glad to have great frens like her.

today cuz its rest day and having shpding later and of cuz music prac..hahaha!! i love going for prac :)

amelia is now blogging in school.

watched the match between Germany and Argentina on friday night, i almost had a heart-attack tat night when argentina scored the first goal, i was at the edge of my seat during the 2nd half. oh wells Germany won in the end, hehe..yea i can see more of Podolski, my favourite player.

neways been thinking bout some things lately.

haaa!

random facts about me

1) loves music
2) forgetful
3) wols
4) loves to play games
5) 19years old
6) sound engineering
7) tanned

7 things that scare me

1) losing my best friends
2) losing my sense of hearing and sight
3) crockroaches
4) losing my family
5) failing m exams
6) Beetles
7) losing my freedom

7 random music at the moment

1) Don't Speak
2) emotions
3) Low
4) amazed
5) one love
6) stuck
7) meant to live

7 things i like the most

1) my close friends
2) anime
3) mP3
4) my dog (qiqi!!!)
5) going out with friends and family
6) my family
7) singing

7 things i say most

1) haha
2) heh?!
3) haHaa
4) hei Hei
5) i seeee
6) despise you
7) OMG

7 ppl to do this

i dunno who to put, so whoever who wants to do juz do it lar..

i need more patience, humility, faith and love.

amelia is very feeling encouraged and happy. hahaha!!

i had fun mixing ytd though i was abit stressed at first but everything worked out great, there was a breakthrough in my mixing ytd.. neways have many more things to improve in.
God understands us!! and the best part is he thinks the world of me.

CG today was a great time of fellowship and a time of learning. Feel so refreshed.
aft cg today went out to haf lunch, den went with Daniel, EC and Ian to cityhall to see guitars, woah i learnt much abt guitars from them today, its so interesting. And of cuz talking to them more is great. learnt much talking to them, yeah and i think i shld fellowship more with the musios. build stronger bonds with them.

Four friends, who hadn't seen each other in 30 years, reunited at a party.
After several drinks, one of the men had to use the restroom.
Those who remained talked about their kids.
The first guy said, "My son is my pride and joy. He started working at a successful company at the bottom of the barrel. He studied Economics and Business Administration and soon began to climb the corporate ladder and now he's the president of the company. He became so rich that he gave his best friend a top of the line Mercedes for his birthday."
The second guy said, "Darn, that's terrific! My son is also my pride and joy. He started working for a big airline, and then went to flight school to become a pilot. Eventually he became a partner in the company,where he owns the majority of its assets. He's so rich that he gave his best friend a brand new jet for his birthday."
The third man said: "Well, that's terrific! My son studied in the best universities and became an engineer. Then he started his own construction company and is now a multimillionaire. He also gave away something very nice and expensive to his best friend for his birthday: A 30,000 square foot mansion."
The three friends congratulated each other just as the fourth returned from the restroom and asked:"What are all the congratulations for?"
One of the three said: "We were talking about the pride we feel for the successes of our sons... What about your son?"
The fourth man replied: "My son is gay and makes a living dancing as a stripper at a nightclub." The three friends said: "What a shame...what a disappointment."
The fourth man replied: "No, I'm not ashamed. He's my son and I love him. And he hasn't done too badly either. His birthday was two weeks ago, and he received a beautiful 30,000 square foot mansion, a brand new jet and a top of the line Mercedes from his three boyfriends."

-_- hehe stupid story

hahahaha!! amelia is bored so she's blogging, the office is so quiet today, project 3 is out on mystery shopping, no one to fight with me today. most of the ppl are on block leave, i wonder why do they even bother asking us to come back to school when most students and teachers are on leave. haiz..stupid school system..

oh wellz..the oni 2 things am looking forward to is lunch time and going home time. i seriously dun see the point in coming to school this week.

am filled with disappointment. i dunno if i shld laugh or cry for the person.


i enjoyed myself so much in retreat ytd, spending time with the soundteam is so refreshing, i feel so encouraged aft each retreat. am loooking forward to seeing more ppl joining us in our family.

today is stay at home day for amelia. father's day dinner was moved to sat instead, and other plans were cancelled, no mood to go out today.

i hope my suspicions of a certain someone is wrong and that am just being over-sensitive..haiz..troubling sia

oh yay!! having sound retreat tmr(which is actually today judging from the time that am typing this)!! hahaha!! going mel's hse, so fun!! am sooooo excited. am soo looking forward to fun and fellowship with the team.

went to the libray ytd and on monday, i had fun reading there, thinking of going there again on friday after lunch since i dun intend to meet anyone. hehe self retreat there.

met carol and ah lin ytd too, they went shopping and i just followed, if u noe amelia well, she dun like going shopping, hahaha!! but den again if its going with my good buddies i won't mind shopping..hee:)

had training today, it was a time of reminding and a time of hearing Steven's heart for the ministry. He places God in the center of what he's doing. Really wanna learn more from him. a Godly man indeed.

ignite was simply awesome, guess one thing i learn from the last night of camp was to trust and to let go. and am thankful for being reminded of the word trust.

though i oni went for one day of camp, the experience was awesome, imagined if i were to be there for the full camp, it'll be an experience i can't describe.

had fun playing blind mice, craziness, the guys are scaryyyyy esp walz and ben, oh my, super scary mice..hahaha!! laughed like mad while playin though. its funny the way how the blind mice guess who they have caught.

i shall stop here or else i'll have to sit in front of my com for a very long time to think of wat to write. hee:)

I had fun being the emcee at the sharing session on wednesday, at the end of the sharing session my friends told me that i had split personality. Oh and i was told to presnet 30 minutes before the start of the session as the presenter had to bring a friend to the doctor at the last minute, so you can imggine how nervous i was and how bad my presentation was..hahaha!!


I had fun at practice ytd too, doing everything alone is quite fun though i felt quite stressed and afraid that i couldn't be efficient. well, practice went smoothly ytd. Thank God for that.

yay met ruiz for lunch today and on monday..hee:) super happy, been quite some time since i really enjoyed my lunch. hee:)

Oh my 2 partners aren't here today, am all alone at my desk, i dun feel lonely though, i can spend time by myself.

looking forward to service tmr and to meeting xinyi for shepherding on sunday yea!


i've got the joy
i've got the peace of mind
i've got the faith in holy ghost that fills me everyday
i've got the light
i've got the melody
i've got the word
The word of God that sets me free

Bless the Broken Road

I set out on a narrow way many years ago
Hoping I would find true love along the broken road
But I got lost a time or two
Wiped my brow and kept pushing through
I couldn't see how every sign pointed straight to you

Chorus:
Every long lost dream led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

I think about the years I spent just passing through
I'd like to have the time I lost and give it back to you
But you just smile and take my hand
You've been there you understand
It's all part of a grander plan that is coming true

Chorus:
Every long lost dream led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

Now I’m just rollin’ home into my lover's arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road that led me straight to you

i have a sudden urge to seclude myself for a few days or maybe for a whole week. neways i juz want to spend time alone away from ppl.. juz me, myself with my music and God. can't wait for my block leave.

I just feel that its all so superficial, it feels that it doesn't matter if i relate with anybody at all.



i juz went to batam on sunday, finally bought myself a new shoe, i love it alot lar, i think my taste is weird lar, my sis says its not nice, but i think it's nice lar, neways it doesn't matter cuz i bought it le. hahahaha!! Missy Elliot rocks man!

my stomach feels like crap now, this few days it has been super weak lar. think my period is coming soon. i keep getting tired easily and a little bit of moodswings.

Am starting to drag myself to school now every morning, i feel so out of place in the place where am posted to.

i needa get of the place that am in..

ending here.

feelings are bottled inside,
i dunno how to let them out,
everything is driving me crazy.
nothing seems right anymore.

Students in TEP esp in my department haf top 3 favourite things to do 1) play bingo, 2) play puzzle fighter, 3) ask qian bian wen da ti..hahaha!! now u noe how bored we are..

oh wells am losing my voice, haiz...my voice very nan ting now, dun feel like talking..
i think i was quite blur today, i made loads of mistakes, mis-cue some stuffs..

here's a song that spoke to me.

Jesus take the wheel
She was driving last Friday on her way to Cincinnati
On a snow white Christmas Eve
Goin' home to see her Mama & her Daddy with the baby in the backseat
Fifty miles to go and she was running low on faith and gasoline
It's been a long hard year
She had a lot on her mind and she didn't pay attention
She was going way to fast
Before she knew it she was spinning on a thin black sheet of glass
She saw both their lives flash before her eyes
She didn't even have time to cry
She was so scared
She threw her hands up in the air

[Chorus:]
Jesus, take the wheel
Take it from my hands
Cause I can't do this on my own
I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
To save me from this road I'm on
Jesus, take the wheel

It was still getting colder when she made it to the shoulder
And the car came to a stop
She cried when she saw that baby in the backseat sleeping like a rock
And for the first time in a long time
She bowed her head to pray
She said I'm sorry for the way
I've been living my life I know
I've got to change So from now on tonight

[Chorus:]
Jesus, take the wheel
Take it from my hands
Cause I can't do this on my own
I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
To save me from this road I'm on
Oh, Jesus, take the wheel
Oh, I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
Save me from this road I'm on
From this road I'm on
Jesus, take the wheel
Oh, take it, take it from me

amelia is a happy girl this week!!
hee..lets see, my favourite activity to do during my TEP working hours is to play BINGO, so next time when pple ask me wat i do in TEP and what i've learnt out of TEP, my ans for them is I LEARNT TO PLAY BINGO!!

yep! wells this week had been fun, got to know the ppl in my department better(not so shy le) hee..been rather tired lately,thank God, there's a long weekend this week for me to rest..

today's sermon was great, it really touched me, our prayer life muz be strong so we can strengthen our inner-man. The things happened today really reminded me of somethings in my life.

Today's the first day of TEP, well, it was a day filled with confusions. When me and my team mates arrived we were at a lost of wat to do. We din noe where the folders were hahaha!! with much patience, we managed to find the folders. Today we were quite busy, that's a good thing, oh we have photo taking session tmr, cuz we need to consolidate the list of students tgt with their photos and contact details. I sense that tmr will be another busy day..
Somehow i feel thankful for being placed in HR/Admin, i get to work tgt with my 2 grp mates closely and we can get to noe alot of ppl..hahahaha!!

Oh i had so much fun sound mixing for service on sat!! hehe..though i made a few boos boos.. I really feel that i love the sound team more and more, as weeks passed am filled with more ownership of the team.
Am overwhelmed with the depth of God's love. The story of Nicodemus reminded me of how God has blessed my family. It refreshes my heart to be reminded of that.

am so thankful.

What am i so thankful for?
-for reminding me of his faithfulness in my life
-for the many ppl God has placed in my life to speak into my life
-for the opportunity to serve

I just got to know where i'll be working at for TEP(teaching enterprise project), am in BSU(business service unit) doing HR/admin. haiz..i think its like a super wu liao job, i'll be oni busy in the morning den aftnoon zuo bo..wahaha! think it'll be a blessing in disguise cuz i'll have alot of time, hehe mayb when i really have nth to do i can sneak off to the back of the office and learn how to play dota(wahahaha!!) oh wells..amelia is a smart girl..

I trult thank God for last week, had a great rest last week and reading of his word. I think my God is an amazing God, for loving us unconditionally no matter how much we haf hurt him..Thank You Lord!

school is starting nxt week, surprisingly i kinda look forward to going to school, guess cuz am gonna learn in a new environment. yeah..I pray that i can use my free time in the office wisely. yeah!

I juz realised qiqi is pretty good at attracting attention. haha she's very good at getting u to play with her.. am amazed, it takes alot of concentration not to get distracted by her, its funny but its true.hahaha!!

am looking for nice nike dunks, ahhh!! hehe..
gonna get converse shoes too..yeah!

truly ministered today in sermon, God is a God of 2nd chance. He's a God of extreme love, mercy, forgiveness. wow(heart melt melt). Words fail me when i really want to say how God has really been with me and his love for me..

Met up with piggy and ah lin ytd night, really had fun with them, though it was just a short time we spent tgt. wah sei, kanna tortured lar, i think now i got bruise on my hands haiz..hehe..

Things at home is still bad, the cold war is still on, this sucks big time. Wondering when it'll stop. I realised its almost always the same matter they quarrel about. haiz, when will my family ever feel like a family, sometimes i feel if i manage to see my sister's face, like often it'll be a miracle.

Watched V for Vendetta ytd night, i loved it alot. Haha!! my favourite quote is People should not be afraid of their goverments. Goverments should be afraid of their people. yeah..learn many things from this movie too. wahaha!! i shall not eloborate here, lazy lar..

Why does quarrels have to be always about money money money? Am sick and tired of this blabbering about money money money. wat am i suppose to do rob a bank? Mummy and my sister quarreled over money matters again. Haiz, am always the one in middle, the victim of their quarrel, consequence is i have to listen to my mother's nagging, and her nagging will turn into scoldings. This will go on for days. I can so bang my head against the wall. When my pay comes in i can't spend it in a way that i planned, since school is starting and my bro is coming back soon, i have to support myself someway or another.
Now is a really good time for me to go someplace and just let it all out.

You are the strength of my heart
You are the strength of my heart
You are the strength of my heart