I have an interview tmr..i really pray hard i get the job man..the location is one of the most ideal place..i have a direct bus there and its near nexus!

i went cycling last week with Daixuan...hee=) it felt great to cycle, esp when u do it with a good friend. on of my favouritest place to go to when am cycling is the jetty in ecp..staying there looking out on the sea and seeing all the ships talking and thinking... it may not have the best view in the world, but its like the best view to me in Singapore.

went to the job fair on sunday with Siewgiok...hahaha!! thankew for coming with me though u already have a job..it was a good time spent with her, and my job fair experience wasn't that good, dun haf much things for me..=(

After the job fair and hanging out with Siewgiok i wanted to go home, but i made a last minute decision to go for the Hope carnival, i managed to catch the 2nd half of the HPL, well, its kinda sad yg's team din win...
to me winning or losing doesn't matter, its the gaining of experience and doing my best is all that counts...

oooooooohhhhhhh....met up with the girls today...hehe its been long since i met them man!!! hahaha!!! we ate at ashtons, aft waiting so long i finally get to try the food there, delicious...wooo!! i bought a pair of shoes today..hehehe

whassup..been looking for a job, no luck so far..
its so demoralising..
its annoyong cuz most companies want ppl with experience but i feel like telling them, if u want ppl with experience den u dun give me a chance to work and gain experience how am i suppose to gain experience..argh..

went to ubin last sunday with Ywam, it was so much fun. the cycling was tiring but enjoyable. My favourite part was cycling down the slope woohoo!!! we had a time of sharing when we reached the beach.. though it was hot but it was a time i treasure alot.. hee

it was our nation's bday ytd..celebrated it with serving and after going to my uncle's house. it's been quite some time since i watched the parade.. can't remb when was the last time i watched it..a few years back i guess.. i din really enjoy the parade, but i got to spend some time with my relatives =)

I went back to school today to take my cert..hahaha..met WW uo for lunch..hehe so happy, so long never eat in school le, after eating we went to buy bubble tea in south canteen which is at the other end of school and i bumped into carmen..heeeeee=). Den we went to my favouritest place to buy stuff, the college bookstore and i bumped into my college bookstore friend, i call her that cuz i dunno her name, but will always talk when we see each other, weird huh..
hahaha so weird hearing ppl call ww miss Ching..hahaha!!!
oh wells aft parting with WW i left the school and went on to aaron's hse to give him tution.. aft teaching him i played his PS2's dynasty warriors..hahaha much more difficult to play den the PSP version..ahahaha

went to meet me mama at a later time, we went to watch Red Cliff..woohoo!! the show rocks man if you're into the war kind shows, can't wait for part 2 to come out..
hahaha...

a good fren of mine is leaving the island tmr for australia to study...=( i'll really miss her loads though she drives me crazy sometimes hahah!! dunno if she'll read this post but still take care of yourself well!! shucks i'll really miss her..she has been a fren who has stood by me through my worse of times till now, one i can count on. the thought of her leaving makes me really sad..
going to the airport tmr to send her off, i hope i won't get too emotional tmr..

meeting quite a number of ppl tmr, meeting miss sotong and bofc hahaha!! guess who.. looking forward to spending time with them, oh aft tat going to nexus to get something and den off to the airport..gonna be rather happening tmr

met up with ruiz today hee=) i have to remb what am supposed to do..
we went to ikea, ate swedish meatballs, pasta, soup and chicken leg. yums..

i haven't been really faithful in updating my blog, well, i shall now update.
been nuahing at home recently and looking for a job. man looking for a job can be tiring and demoralizing, been sending out loads of resumes..oh wells finally am going for an interview tmr at recruit express..hmmm..i hope i can get something decent..i really need a job!! Help me!! Please make this work..

alright camp is over, i know i'm like a few weeks late, but its better late den never eh..yeas!! Oasis, is the first camp tat i could stay throughout..woohooo!! think the last one tat i stayed throughout was like probably abt 2 years ago..
it felt good to stay throughout camp, cuz its refreshing and i get to spend more time with the ppl around me..God has spoken much, thank you God for being here throughout all these times especially during my down times. I need you to work in my life.
this paragraph is not sufficient to wrap up my whole experience in camp, there is so much more to say but i just dunno where to start, so i'll just leave it here for now.

one thing sharlene said last week in P&W: the world doesnt need more money, the world doesnt need more oil, the world doesnt need more food. God, what the world really needs is Your forgiveness.
yes lord that is what the world need, that is what i need.





the feelings of hatred builds up in me
the feelings of love slowly fades away
is it that difficult to stop?

alright amelia's been lazy again..
hahaha!! ok many happenings this week, oh yea i bumped into weiling last sat in Bishan, hehe was so happy to bump into her and talked with her, oh man i really miss her and susilawati angkasa(dunno correct spelling anot lah) my first 2 shepherds..

*am gonna be rather random now*

oh we had a class gathering last thurs(1st May) at east coast park, we had BBQ, and the pit was darn far, had to walk for at least 10mins before we reach it..haha!! i had fun there, bbqing under the moonlight with my classmates..yea am looking forward to the many gatherings we're gonna have

just this thurs i met up with my secondary school friends, i miss them soooo much, too bad jq wasn't there, heee and shima and shalala as well, it would have been crazier with them ard, but still it was a great night out with them and a great time of catching up.

think for the next few weeks is gonna be crazy, so many ppl to meet hahaha!! woohoo!! man!! this feels great man!

oh i argued with my brother today ahaha abt something hais oh wells..
oh am super happy today too!! lalalala

yay!! the old blogskin is no more!! hehe
no more pictureless skin

yea..am now officailly jobless, which means am free till i find another job, so feel free to like date me now, or i'll be bored at home besides doing work...hehe..

oh yah my neighbor tat lives 2 floors above me is so horrible, they threw rotten eggs down and hit our clothes tat we hang out to dry, argh, now we haf to wash them again, last time they threw their cigarette butts out their windows, and will often land on my aircon condenser, which will den pollute my room with the smoke. Dang this is the first time i met such horrible neighbors, i was so tempted just now to storm up to their apartment and scold them. when i think abt it i get fuming mad. *calm down calm down*

Footprints in the sand

You walked with me
Footprints in the sand
And helped me understand
Where I'm going
You walked with me
When I was all alone
With so much unknown
Along the way
Than I heard you say

I promise you I'm always there
When your heart is filled with sorrow and despair
I'll carry you
When you need a friend
You'll find my footprints in the sand

I see my life
Flash across the sky
So many times have I Been so afraid
And just when I
I thought I'd lost my way
You gave me strength to carry on
Thats when I heard you say

When I'm weary Lord,
I know you've been there
And I can feel you when you say

i shall hunt for another blogskin soon..yea..the picture is gone!!! hahaha
oh wells work so far has been good, but am kinda bored, nth much to do in the offie, i have to keep on asking the perm staff for things to do..hahaha!!! oh wells..

neways my grauation ceremony is on the 23rd of May..hahaha!!! Gosh how time flies man..i have already graduated from NYP!!! i'll miss the times of going for tuts and lects, the lousy comps in school, the crowded canteens with not so nice food, of cuz going to college bookstore to buy sweets. hahaha!! bitter sweet memories of school.

oh its jia's bday today!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO U !!! and to all the ppl who come to this earth in apr..

oh i served at foh today or rather ytd alone for many reasons, hehe i had fun doing alone. i kinda enjoy doing alone..oh my in the past if i had to do alone, i'll be very panicky and get super nervous..hee=) yay!!

Shirls talked abt stress today, ride the tandem bike with God let he be in control guiding us where are we going, all we have to do is just pedal.

so many things i need to grow in..jia you!

oh i went to eat with ah girl and ldx at some place if u order set meal, you have free flow of drinks and ice-cream, the food not that bad, and of cuz the most impt thing is the people that u're with. Spent a great time with those 2 girls, Miss Dumb and Miss Dumberest..hahaha!! now miss dumb has found someone to laugh at..hahaha!! they are really great ppl to hang out with and talk to..hee we shld hang out more!!

oh yah we had EC's farewell too, he's moving on to the tertiary service..i'll miss this brother...use ur giftings there and bless the tertiary team man!!

here are some pictures from the minops outing at sentosa.

ywam

us throwing daixuan in the water( she din put in much of a fight)
shuz coming out from the water aft being thrown in ( she tried to pull me in too but i managed to escape
us burying Gwen
ambassador of 7eleven's big gulp and super big gulp
Ywam girls
minops girls with EC
Ywam 1
minops!!

i think i am a lazy blogger...hahaha oh wells i Am lazy!!

hahaha!! neways the past 2 weeks have been rather happening hee=)
let me describe the events one by one..hahaha

1st event: on 22nd march aft easter service i rushed back home to prepare for my 21st birthday party at home with some of my relatives and friends..it was a fun filled party..yea i felt really xin fu and happy. feeling of love from frens and family, where all gather at one place just to celebrate my bday. hee=) i shall attempt to insert some pics here
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aight for now i'll just put these photos for now hee=) pictures speak louder den words huh..

event number 2: bball cg on monday 24 march..hee had a great time of playing basketball with the grp, it was super fun..hahaha!! never run so much in so long..hee=) last game of the night we played full court..man it was tiring but much better den playing half court.. did i mention i LOVE bball!!

event number 3: ywam DMM on 26 march..it was a night of great learning and time spent with the group..=) i need to be consistent

event number 4: amelia's bday bash at east coast on 27 march..ruiz and the rest of the grp surprised me. it really was a pleasant surprise from all of u, really really appreciate it alot..heart melt melt..no words can describe how i felt that day =) and God is really God to me.. He cleared the sky for me and displayed the stars out, i've never seen so many stars in the Singapore Sky before, the image is forever imprinted in my heart.

Event number 5: i started work at cpg as a admin assistant on friday 28 march..ahahaha!! yea and am ending work on the 27 of apr

event number 6: minops cg at sentosa today..we celebrated shan's bday today hahaha!!! hmmm..i think it was fun..so long since i went to sentosa..played monkey, volleyball and some of us threw( i dun think it was throwing it was more like putting them into the water) shuz and daixuan into in water.. we attempted to throw dua gu into the water but we buried her in the sand instead..hahaha

yay!!! exam's over!! hahaha though it like ended on tues..i should stop procrastinating to blog..
really thank God for the last 2 papers of my exams, the papers were easier den expected especially the last paper. The first 2 papers were the killers, though i prefered the first 2 modules the most. ahh...i was damn pissed with myself for my QM paper, my mind was a blank and this has never happened before and i lost many points. shucks it would be a miracle if i can get a decent score for the module. oh wells, doesn't matter its over and am thankful for it.

Had class chalet after our last paper, but i din go on the first night, first time in my 1 and a half years of being in the class i see us gathered in the same place having fun together and eating together..damn fun lah!! hahaha oh we had BBQ, we had extra guests to our bbq hahaha!!! 3 cats -_-''' shld have more of this kind of gathering man, finally my class feels like a class..if u noe what i mean. =) oh and we went night cycling..hahaha!! we cycled from the chalet to changi Village, and yes i saw many you know wats..i was actully quite disgusted, but i've got to admit they got quite nice figures.. the cycling was fun and tiring, cycled for about 4 hours.. my legs were like wobbly aft tat..hahaha!!

oh carol and ah lin came to my hse on friday, hehe..watched movie called yours mine and ours, funny show and the kids are like cute..hehe it was a day of becoming couch potatoes..hahaha!! it was great to catch up with them after so long..
alright i shall end now and go eat my dinner..i shall update again soon i hope..

oh and as crazy as it sound am gonna go back to school on tues to pack the locker with WC and go have our last meal in nyp MCD..we are crazy right??

Entre Day is finally over and so are all our projects. Now am left with the last lap of my semester and poly life. Exams had never been so stressful before this. i shall be term a mugger until the exams are over..
Studying in school with my study partners had been fun..hahaha!! and i found out some webby to play mahjong online with people, though the feeling is not the same as playing the real thing but its the next best thing to it..hehe
aahhhh..am having pimple outbreak, think its due to the stress and heatyness..oh wells

Went to Shima's 21st bday party ytd, the party was good, can really see that her family and frens love her alot by the presentations put up for her..hee=)

*blows the dust away from the blog* hehe:)
haven't been blogging all this while.

Went to watch Sweeny Todd today and had dinner tgt with the Gang, Chinhong, Renxin, Vani and Becky. i had fun hanging out with them, but the movie was a let down, i was expecting much, hais saded. hahaha!!
Had crmp presentation today, i was the first speaker, haha!! overall it was ok, i stumbled abit here and there.
hmmm lets see, things are getting better, it kinda helps when i open up my eyes more and learning to be in their shoes. =) another bigger challenge lies ahead though..how will i overcome it.

in last sat's service, Jasmine preached abt family, when i heard wat she was saying abt it, in my mind i was thinking abt my family..esp abt the level of satisfaction, it really got me thinking there.

lalalalalalalala...
my eye is killing me, i've been feeling pain in my left eye since ytd, and i still don't have any idea what is causing the pain..ahhh!!! in the later part of tutorial today my vision went kinda blury, i couldn't really open my eyes.

neways hahaha!!! my tchers are so good to us, most of our project deadlines are being push back by a week. which is kinda good for us since we have 2 deadlines to meet next week and both are not exactly complete yet. phew..

school's been boring this past week or so..so many classes were cancelled as well.

God Loves Ugly

You said that I wasn't pretty
so I just believed you
You said that I wasn't special
so I lived that way
with critical gazes and brutal amazement
at how my reflection could be so imperfect
with all of my blemishes
how could somebody want me

But God loves ugly
He doesn't see the way I see
oh, God takes ugly
and turns it into something that is beautiful
apparently I'm beautiful
cause You love me

I tried to clean up the outside
all shiny and new
worked overtime to thin up and look right
but inside I knew
that deep in the bottom were secrets I thought I could try to ignore
old ghosts in my corridors never get tired of haunting the past that's in me

help me believe why you love me
when I know you see
you see everything
help me believe why you love me
when I know you see inside and you still say I'm beautiful
you're telling me I'm beautiful
you're screaming out, so beautiful
and I'm finding out I'm beautiful
you're making me so beautiful
and I can see I'm beautiful
'cause you love me

met up with Ruiz today, ate at S11, we both had suan la mian. yea its been long sia, God knows how long man. It was a good break away time for me, even though it was a short time spent, but i still appreciate the time. =)

oh bumped into many people today as well. Bumped into noraini and Katini in Delifrance, they were working and waved at me, hahaha!! i was wondering who that person is..hahaha!!! talked with them for awhile, den i bumped into fangwei and huiyang soon mark and paul came along too, chatted with them, when a familiar person came by carrying a child, it was miss Georgie, gosh it has been years since i last saw her man, lost contact with her since poly started, and boy was i happy to see her, chatted for a bit. Must ask her out for lunch soon tgt with baoping and ah lin.. i remember how we use to go to reach almost everyday in primary and secondary school, the times we'll talk and talk and talk with miss Georgie, Christy and Jessie. Those were the days.


i have decided i need to improve more in my keyb mixing skills, i am not contented with what level i am at now.. listen listen listen listen...

my opinions don't matter to you, don't they???
you say keep giving ideas, but you never consider mine, but u ask me to consider yours when they don't make sense at all... what's the point of asking what i think and you don't give a d*** when i say it out..
I see no improvement at all.. why should i bother..
i wanna be heard, i wanna have a say
This resentment in me, will explode one day.
i can't stand it...argh!
why should i listen to you?
what u say, feel or think doesn't matter to me

if you notice you'll know.

school has started for 3 days le...oh wells..seems like the 2 weeks break plus plus, isn't enough to rest..hahaa!! been busy during the break with many things.

neways highlights in the 2 weeks break was the minops pj party on the 26th of dec, i had so much fun spending time with them, i miss these moments with them..and another highlight was the first cg of the year 2008, it was a cooking cg, oooh and for your information the cooking wasn't done by the ladies, it was by the guys!! haha!! master chef of the day was QianJin..it was a memorable time spent with ywam1..



it is not how it seems to be, dun claim to understand when u dun, and dun make assumptions..
argh..the grp is not as it used to be, really feel like seperating myself from them..i dun feel like myself..if i was given another chance, i wouldn't make the same decision again..as harsh as it seems, that's how i feel.

i feel very random now, so this post will be random too..

i have very mixed feelings about graduating, i feel happy yet at the same time i feel lost.. tell me what to do..

i had a disoriented feeling ytd, dunno why, prephas cuz it was here

had a fieldtrip today to Bakerzin and City Satay/food. Was made to be the emcee for the bus ride from Bakerzin to city satay, i almost died, paiseh and not prepared..sang abit also..think i face kinda turned red. but all in all it was good.
the talk the bosses gave was interesting and funny..hahah!! learned a few things there, so it was a good trip all in all.

watched Alvin and the Chipmunks just now with ChinHong, YiSong and SiewGiok, it was good...hahaha!! enjoyed myself..Simon, Alvin and Theodore are so adorable..hahaha!!

was updating halfway den there was a powertrip thank God blogger has the automatic save ur drafts function, or else i'll haf to re type again.

its the start of term break now..but it'll be 2 weeks of doing projects, will be seeing my team mates almost everyday..hahaha



X29- youth camp

sad as i am tat i couldn't go for the full camp, but still i learnt alot..

i realised how inadequate i am...



had crmp test last tues, i took set A, i shldn't haf changed my place, set B has all the qns which i studied for argh..
had quality management test on thurs, hahaha!! i literally laughed when i saw the paper, almost everything i studied came out, was super happy!! totally opposite from the crmp paper..hee=)

oh man the svc ytd was awesome, the drama was great..yea..my bro came too..really want to reconnect him again. we can do it.