alright amelia's been lazy again..
hahaha!! ok many happenings this week, oh yea i bumped into weiling last sat in Bishan, hehe was so happy to bump into her and talked with her, oh man i really miss her and susilawati angkasa(dunno correct spelling anot lah) my first 2 shepherds..

*am gonna be rather random now*

oh we had a class gathering last thurs(1st May) at east coast park, we had BBQ, and the pit was darn far, had to walk for at least 10mins before we reach it..haha!! i had fun there, bbqing under the moonlight with my classmates..yea am looking forward to the many gatherings we're gonna have

just this thurs i met up with my secondary school friends, i miss them soooo much, too bad jq wasn't there, heee and shima and shalala as well, it would have been crazier with them ard, but still it was a great night out with them and a great time of catching up.

think for the next few weeks is gonna be crazy, so many ppl to meet hahaha!! woohoo!! man!! this feels great man!

oh i argued with my brother today ahaha abt something hais oh wells..
oh am super happy today too!! lalalala

yay!! the old blogskin is no more!! hehe
no more pictureless skin

yea..am now officailly jobless, which means am free till i find another job, so feel free to like date me now, or i'll be bored at home besides doing work...hehe..

oh yah my neighbor tat lives 2 floors above me is so horrible, they threw rotten eggs down and hit our clothes tat we hang out to dry, argh, now we haf to wash them again, last time they threw their cigarette butts out their windows, and will often land on my aircon condenser, which will den pollute my room with the smoke. Dang this is the first time i met such horrible neighbors, i was so tempted just now to storm up to their apartment and scold them. when i think abt it i get fuming mad. *calm down calm down*

Footprints in the sand

You walked with me
Footprints in the sand
And helped me understand
Where I'm going
You walked with me
When I was all alone
With so much unknown
Along the way
Than I heard you say

I promise you I'm always there
When your heart is filled with sorrow and despair
I'll carry you
When you need a friend
You'll find my footprints in the sand

I see my life
Flash across the sky
So many times have I Been so afraid
And just when I
I thought I'd lost my way
You gave me strength to carry on
Thats when I heard you say

When I'm weary Lord,
I know you've been there
And I can feel you when you say

i shall hunt for another blogskin soon..yea..the picture is gone!!! hahaha
oh wells work so far has been good, but am kinda bored, nth much to do in the offie, i have to keep on asking the perm staff for things to do..hahaha!!! oh wells..

neways my grauation ceremony is on the 23rd of May..hahaha!!! Gosh how time flies man..i have already graduated from NYP!!! i'll miss the times of going for tuts and lects, the lousy comps in school, the crowded canteens with not so nice food, of cuz going to college bookstore to buy sweets. hahaha!! bitter sweet memories of school.

oh its jia's bday today!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO U !!! and to all the ppl who come to this earth in apr..

oh i served at foh today or rather ytd alone for many reasons, hehe i had fun doing alone. i kinda enjoy doing alone..oh my in the past if i had to do alone, i'll be very panicky and get super nervous..hee=) yay!!

Shirls talked abt stress today, ride the tandem bike with God let he be in control guiding us where are we going, all we have to do is just pedal.

so many things i need to grow in..jia you!

oh i went to eat with ah girl and ldx at some place if u order set meal, you have free flow of drinks and ice-cream, the food not that bad, and of cuz the most impt thing is the people that u're with. Spent a great time with those 2 girls, Miss Dumb and Miss Dumberest..hahaha!! now miss dumb has found someone to laugh at..hahaha!! they are really great ppl to hang out with and talk to..hee we shld hang out more!!

oh yah we had EC's farewell too, he's moving on to the tertiary service..i'll miss this brother...use ur giftings there and bless the tertiary team man!!

here are some pictures from the minops outing at sentosa.

ywam

us throwing daixuan in the water( she din put in much of a fight)
shuz coming out from the water aft being thrown in ( she tried to pull me in too but i managed to escape
us burying Gwen
ambassador of 7eleven's big gulp and super big gulp
Ywam girls
minops girls with EC
Ywam 1
minops!!

i think i am a lazy blogger...hahaha oh wells i Am lazy!!

hahaha!! neways the past 2 weeks have been rather happening hee=)
let me describe the events one by one..hahaha

1st event: on 22nd march aft easter service i rushed back home to prepare for my 21st birthday party at home with some of my relatives and friends..it was a fun filled party..yea i felt really xin fu and happy. feeling of love from frens and family, where all gather at one place just to celebrate my bday. hee=) i shall attempt to insert some pics here
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aight for now i'll just put these photos for now hee=) pictures speak louder den words huh..

event number 2: bball cg on monday 24 march..hee had a great time of playing basketball with the grp, it was super fun..hahaha!! never run so much in so long..hee=) last game of the night we played full court..man it was tiring but much better den playing half court.. did i mention i LOVE bball!!

event number 3: ywam DMM on 26 march..it was a night of great learning and time spent with the group..=) i need to be consistent

event number 4: amelia's bday bash at east coast on 27 march..ruiz and the rest of the grp surprised me. it really was a pleasant surprise from all of u, really really appreciate it alot..heart melt melt..no words can describe how i felt that day =) and God is really God to me.. He cleared the sky for me and displayed the stars out, i've never seen so many stars in the Singapore Sky before, the image is forever imprinted in my heart.

Event number 5: i started work at cpg as a admin assistant on friday 28 march..ahahaha!! yea and am ending work on the 27 of apr

event number 6: minops cg at sentosa today..we celebrated shan's bday today hahaha!!! hmmm..i think it was fun..so long since i went to sentosa..played monkey, volleyball and some of us threw( i dun think it was throwing it was more like putting them into the water) shuz and daixuan into in water.. we attempted to throw dua gu into the water but we buried her in the sand instead..hahaha

yay!!! exam's over!! hahaha though it like ended on tues..i should stop procrastinating to blog..
really thank God for the last 2 papers of my exams, the papers were easier den expected especially the last paper. The first 2 papers were the killers, though i prefered the first 2 modules the most. ahh...i was damn pissed with myself for my QM paper, my mind was a blank and this has never happened before and i lost many points. shucks it would be a miracle if i can get a decent score for the module. oh wells, doesn't matter its over and am thankful for it.

Had class chalet after our last paper, but i din go on the first night, first time in my 1 and a half years of being in the class i see us gathered in the same place having fun together and eating together..damn fun lah!! hahaha oh we had BBQ, we had extra guests to our bbq hahaha!!! 3 cats -_-''' shld have more of this kind of gathering man, finally my class feels like a class..if u noe what i mean. =) oh and we went night cycling..hahaha!! we cycled from the chalet to changi Village, and yes i saw many you know wats..i was actully quite disgusted, but i've got to admit they got quite nice figures.. the cycling was fun and tiring, cycled for about 4 hours.. my legs were like wobbly aft tat..hahaha!!

oh carol and ah lin came to my hse on friday, hehe..watched movie called yours mine and ours, funny show and the kids are like cute..hehe it was a day of becoming couch potatoes..hahaha!! it was great to catch up with them after so long..
alright i shall end now and go eat my dinner..i shall update again soon i hope..

oh and as crazy as it sound am gonna go back to school on tues to pack the locker with WC and go have our last meal in nyp MCD..we are crazy right??

Entre Day is finally over and so are all our projects. Now am left with the last lap of my semester and poly life. Exams had never been so stressful before this. i shall be term a mugger until the exams are over..
Studying in school with my study partners had been fun..hahaha!! and i found out some webby to play mahjong online with people, though the feeling is not the same as playing the real thing but its the next best thing to it..hehe
aahhhh..am having pimple outbreak, think its due to the stress and heatyness..oh wells

Went to Shima's 21st bday party ytd, the party was good, can really see that her family and frens love her alot by the presentations put up for her..hee=)

*blows the dust away from the blog* hehe:)
haven't been blogging all this while.

Went to watch Sweeny Todd today and had dinner tgt with the Gang, Chinhong, Renxin, Vani and Becky. i had fun hanging out with them, but the movie was a let down, i was expecting much, hais saded. hahaha!!
Had crmp presentation today, i was the first speaker, haha!! overall it was ok, i stumbled abit here and there.
hmmm lets see, things are getting better, it kinda helps when i open up my eyes more and learning to be in their shoes. =) another bigger challenge lies ahead though..how will i overcome it.

in last sat's service, Jasmine preached abt family, when i heard wat she was saying abt it, in my mind i was thinking abt my family..esp abt the level of satisfaction, it really got me thinking there.

lalalalalalalala...
my eye is killing me, i've been feeling pain in my left eye since ytd, and i still don't have any idea what is causing the pain..ahhh!!! in the later part of tutorial today my vision went kinda blury, i couldn't really open my eyes.

neways hahaha!!! my tchers are so good to us, most of our project deadlines are being push back by a week. which is kinda good for us since we have 2 deadlines to meet next week and both are not exactly complete yet. phew..

school's been boring this past week or so..so many classes were cancelled as well.

God Loves Ugly

You said that I wasn't pretty
so I just believed you
You said that I wasn't special
so I lived that way
with critical gazes and brutal amazement
at how my reflection could be so imperfect
with all of my blemishes
how could somebody want me

But God loves ugly
He doesn't see the way I see
oh, God takes ugly
and turns it into something that is beautiful
apparently I'm beautiful
cause You love me

I tried to clean up the outside
all shiny and new
worked overtime to thin up and look right
but inside I knew
that deep in the bottom were secrets I thought I could try to ignore
old ghosts in my corridors never get tired of haunting the past that's in me

help me believe why you love me
when I know you see
you see everything
help me believe why you love me
when I know you see inside and you still say I'm beautiful
you're telling me I'm beautiful
you're screaming out, so beautiful
and I'm finding out I'm beautiful
you're making me so beautiful
and I can see I'm beautiful
'cause you love me

met up with Ruiz today, ate at S11, we both had suan la mian. yea its been long sia, God knows how long man. It was a good break away time for me, even though it was a short time spent, but i still appreciate the time. =)

oh bumped into many people today as well. Bumped into noraini and Katini in Delifrance, they were working and waved at me, hahaha!! i was wondering who that person is..hahaha!!! talked with them for awhile, den i bumped into fangwei and huiyang soon mark and paul came along too, chatted with them, when a familiar person came by carrying a child, it was miss Georgie, gosh it has been years since i last saw her man, lost contact with her since poly started, and boy was i happy to see her, chatted for a bit. Must ask her out for lunch soon tgt with baoping and ah lin.. i remember how we use to go to reach almost everyday in primary and secondary school, the times we'll talk and talk and talk with miss Georgie, Christy and Jessie. Those were the days.


i have decided i need to improve more in my keyb mixing skills, i am not contented with what level i am at now.. listen listen listen listen...

my opinions don't matter to you, don't they???
you say keep giving ideas, but you never consider mine, but u ask me to consider yours when they don't make sense at all... what's the point of asking what i think and you don't give a d*** when i say it out..
I see no improvement at all.. why should i bother..
i wanna be heard, i wanna have a say
This resentment in me, will explode one day.
i can't stand it...argh!
why should i listen to you?
what u say, feel or think doesn't matter to me

if you notice you'll know.

school has started for 3 days le...oh wells..seems like the 2 weeks break plus plus, isn't enough to rest..hahaa!! been busy during the break with many things.

neways highlights in the 2 weeks break was the minops pj party on the 26th of dec, i had so much fun spending time with them, i miss these moments with them..and another highlight was the first cg of the year 2008, it was a cooking cg, oooh and for your information the cooking wasn't done by the ladies, it was by the guys!! haha!! master chef of the day was QianJin..it was a memorable time spent with ywam1..



it is not how it seems to be, dun claim to understand when u dun, and dun make assumptions..
argh..the grp is not as it used to be, really feel like seperating myself from them..i dun feel like myself..if i was given another chance, i wouldn't make the same decision again..as harsh as it seems, that's how i feel.

i feel very random now, so this post will be random too..

i have very mixed feelings about graduating, i feel happy yet at the same time i feel lost.. tell me what to do..

i had a disoriented feeling ytd, dunno why, prephas cuz it was here

had a fieldtrip today to Bakerzin and City Satay/food. Was made to be the emcee for the bus ride from Bakerzin to city satay, i almost died, paiseh and not prepared..sang abit also..think i face kinda turned red. but all in all it was good.
the talk the bosses gave was interesting and funny..hahah!! learned a few things there, so it was a good trip all in all.

watched Alvin and the Chipmunks just now with ChinHong, YiSong and SiewGiok, it was good...hahaha!! enjoyed myself..Simon, Alvin and Theodore are so adorable..hahaha!!

was updating halfway den there was a powertrip thank God blogger has the automatic save ur drafts function, or else i'll haf to re type again.

its the start of term break now..but it'll be 2 weeks of doing projects, will be seeing my team mates almost everyday..hahaha



X29- youth camp

sad as i am tat i couldn't go for the full camp, but still i learnt alot..

i realised how inadequate i am...



had crmp test last tues, i took set A, i shldn't haf changed my place, set B has all the qns which i studied for argh..
had quality management test on thurs, hahaha!! i literally laughed when i saw the paper, almost everything i studied came out, was super happy!! totally opposite from the crmp paper..hee=)

oh man the svc ytd was awesome, the drama was great..yea..my bro came too..really want to reconnect him again. we can do it.

school has started..am now towards the end of my 2nd week of the semester..
the projects are slowly piling up.. ICAs are coming soon..
really want to do well this semester..den further my studies in university..

dun u feel sometimes mothers can make u feel so happy, and also make u very angry too??
if u do den am not alone..
haha!!

so many things i wanna say, but i dunno how to..so think i'll end here

the blog is collecting dust yet again...
and here am i again to clean the dust away..hahaha!! -_-'''
highlights for last week are i ended work on tues, actually suppose to be the previous friday, but got extended..oh wells i lazy to explain why, neways on my last day, i was super happy the whole day, was grinning ear to ear, when the clock striked 545pm i wanted to jump up and shout hooray! but can't. so i just left aft taking fotos and rushed off to celebrate my sister's bday. went to amk to eat..yummy, the food's not bad.
And now the most exciting part of my week...I WENT FOR ZHANG HUI MEI"S (a.k.a A*MEI) CONCERT!!!!!! she is so damn good sia, her voice is superb..she sang for 3 hours plus and her voice never zhao sia(out of tune). the last hour or so of the concert, she did unplug, and from there you can hear the power of her voice..and i can say that she is getting better and better..if u think that her voice is powerful in her album, wait till u hear her sing live, it's even more powerful..she's more interactive this time, her wu tai mei li is just wow, even when she's singing slow songs the presence is there. you also can sense that she sings with feelings.. ok i shall stop here or i'll keep going on and on and on

am starting school tmr..mixed feeling happy and yet sian..hahaha oh wells

jh complained that the blog is rotting..hahaha!! well it is..been rather lazy and busy lately.
well!! its my last week of working the coming week..am looking forward to it sia..1 week break den the start of school le..kinda looking forward to the start of school. cuz it means i can hang out with my frens yay!! =) oh!! and ian helped me mod my psp!! ahaha!! now i can do so much more with it..hahaha!!
neways i did sound today!! yay!! lee told me aft svc dat the toms sounded good and its the kind of sound that he wanted to hear..i was so encouraged to hear that. Thank You God, for sustaining me today. Seriously, i was feeling really lousy today i mean physically, my throat felt funny, and my head hurt in 2nd svc, i was able to tahan till the end of 2nd svc. if God din work i dun think i would be able to deliver the best today. during the gathering b4 the start of pm, Dennis shared sth abt excitment, den i asked myself am i excited today or even the many weeks i serve. I guess i have to ask myself this constantly and do a constant healthchecks with God.

met up my xiao wu guis on friday night, yea i rushed to prac, den to meet them, den back to prac again..hahaha!! yea i rushed like mad..but am glad to meet them, boy how much i miss them and laughing at all the stewpid things we do and catching up with one another..hahaha!! thankew ladies for accomodating with my requests that night and for understanding..=)

ok the blog has been rotting for quite some time..its been a week since i came back from Taiwan narunwan(spelt sth liddat i think, wait i go check the picture opps its naruwan)..hehe..neways i really enjoyed my trip there, on the day of my departure from there i kinda looked forward to coming back to s'pore cuz i miss my frens, the food, my bed and the comfort of my home. but i really miss that place...on the day i came back to s'pore the first thing i felt was wah sei super hot sia..seriously its like living in a suana..hahaha!!!

oh wells..its good to be back seeing the faces of ppl i care abt, ppl who i enjoy being with, ppl i love..attending svc, learning the word and serving. man it feels good.

the scenery in Taiwan is mag...i was in awe..
wow!!! that's not even enough the describe it..mayb cuz i've never seen the swiss alps..hahaa

first time in the entire period after i got my new com did i ever not use it for 5 days straight..i am serious i did not on it since monday till now..omg hahaha oh wells..
i shall update u on my week thus far..
well work's been getting better but stress level's kinda getting higher..hahaha gotta rush many things or else the other operations in the company cannot run..so yea u imagine the pressure, now the future month or so working there will test me in my typing speed, seeing, sorting and making payments speed..challenging, cuz scared will be mistakes..thank God am oni a temp staff.. oh the ppl there are much friendlier now, got more ppl to talk to. they all call me ah mei(4)..haha!! oni my 2nd week at work and i need to work OT twice..haiz..

been feeling rather tired lately esp this week, still not very used to this timing i guess and to the constant look at the papers and computer.. and i think i may fall sick soon (my feelings are usually wrong). oh gosh i pray i dun get sick now, i wanna go Taiwan with a healthy body, to enjoy the trip out of S'pore..

i went with my mother to ding tai fung on wed...hmmm the xiao long pao quite nice, the fried prawn pancake thingy also quite nice oh the suan la tang also nice and i got cheated by the name i tot its spicy but its not...hahaha..the next place i wanna try the food at is botak jones which am going tmr or rather ltr for lunch if nothing goes wrong..hehe

met with my friends from mayer today, had a great time with them and i really miss them loads, sad that i can't see the whole bunch of them..haiz how i miss monster and disturbing her, how i miss tricking ah lotte and seeing her blur face, how i miss talking with ah dawn in the midst of work and whenever, how i miss disturbing zhou tai with her t shirt quote 'careful, i had a bowl of bitchy for breakfast', how i miss ah xiang's craziness, how i miss talking crap with shi fu, how i miss walking to spareparts to talk with haizan, how i miss the times of talking with mu mu and the rare times that he can drive the van home, how i miss the times of singing one nite in beijing with an-nee, how i miss talking with auntie nonsense, how i miss the times of lunch with them, the times of taking the shuttle bus with them, the times of train rides home with them and surprisingly how i miss the times of going into miss chong's office, how i miss the kboxing with them..
one thing really agree with zhou tai after we left mayer the things we miss there most is not the work or anything but rather the ppl, cuz at mayer the ppl we worked with feel like kinda family to us..we work and play tgt..

and i do miss going out with ppl like ruiz, shan, jess, yenli, zyann, ruth and the whole bunch of my ex cg mates, jqian(really miss going out and talking with her)..

oh my mum blessed me recently with 2 pairs of tracee shoes..hee=) so i have shoes that i feel comfortable in and it fits with my working attire..hee=)