had the most memorable bday celebration today at sentosa, guys i really appreciate it alot, truly encouraged by what was being shared and the cards too..thankew guys!!
hehe..neways my face got smashed into the cake today, and the strange thing is i knew that they were going to do it, but den i still allowed it to happen, because i knew that i confirm can't escape de..hahaha!! silly me...

i really enjoyed mixing ytd, though i feel stressed during the first svc, but i had fun in the 2nd svc doing the instuments..hehe..hahaha!! so happy..Amelia is a happy girl. oh rite, played pool ytd, was totally not on form ytd, almost everytime i hit i miss. haiz.. oh yesh, learnt much from Pastor Ben's sermon ytd too, total recall, wow, we are all God's masterpiece and he ain't finish with us yet. isn't it amazing that God's motivatedy his love, mercy and grace that he save us?

am in school now..
hahaha!! working sia from 9-6(9hrs), hahahaha!! can die, but i can do alot of stuffs..i shall use the 9 hrs to read and to think abt things.

crap! i forgot wat i wanted to type..argh..silly me..oh yah i juz remb one thing, am having my tep first, haiz..sian..oh wells its ok, i still have to go through it no matter wat, since am doing it first, i should make the most out of it..yea..

wah..i no inspiration to type le..
omg i actually thought alot of things i wanted to type de, but when i sit infront of the com to type, i forgot everything, haiz wat rubbish.

my results are finally out..
PRINCIPLES OF ACCOUNTING- B+
MICROECONOMICS- C+
STATISTICAL METHODS FOR BUSINESS- B+
PRINCIPLES OF MARKETING- B
EFFECTIVE WRITING SKILLS- C
BUSINESS SOFTWARE APPLICATIONS- B+

wahaha!! though it doesn't seem that fantastic, i am very satisfied with my results. first time in my life am really satisfied with my results. yeah, now i can really party w/o worries. i was really afraid that i would have to take supp paper. Thank God.

was at the poly camp on tues and wed, it was a fantastic time of serving in sound and a wonderful time of learning the word, though i din have the notes but am really blessed with the teachings.

Called to be salt and light
Called to preserve and shine

this song is really stuck in my head..hahaha!!

yay am going to Kukup this Sat, haha!! good seafood here i come!!

oh wells the 2 mths of training has started, pretty stressed, i noe thru this time of training i will definately improve in many ways, truly thank God for Jia too, for being patient in explaining the things i havta improve in.

results are coming out soon!! this thurs. ahhhhh!! very scared..

ohhh..had gals nite out ytd at Puay's hse i had so much fun playing pool. I havta to play 2 rounds before i get the feeling..hahahaha!! oh and we had self made fondue too..nice..the strawberries were super big lar. craziness.

am like not elaborating on anything..hahaha!! no mood lar.

You Don't Miss A Thing

You know my motives
You know my heart
No matter what I'm doin'
You see my secrets
Right through the dark
Who do I think I'm foolin'?
You watch me runnin'
You let me hide
'Cause You know where I'm goin' to
Seeking me
Reaching me
Keeping me in Your care, Lord
I can't escape it


You don't miss a thing I do
You see every move I make
But You know everything I need
You don't let a care get by You
You don't miss a thing, do You?

When my heart's broken
You dry my tears
'Cause You know what I'm feeling
When I am frozen
You melt my fears
Your gentle love is healing
You feed my hunger
You quench my thirst
'Cause You are my provider
Leading me
Teaching me
Keeping me in Your care, Lord
I can't escape it


You don't miss a thing I do
You see every move I make
You know everything I need
You don't let a care get by You
You hear every word I say
I will never go unnoticed
'Cause You don't miss a thing, do You?

You don't miss a thing... no, no ,no...

overjoyed is the word to express wat am feeling now..woah..haven't felt like this for a very long time..this feeling is awesome..
worship today is really powerful cld feel God moving.
we will crown him king forever
living saviour, Jesus redeemer
Lord of heaven robed in majesty
crowned in glory creations adore you

sermon was powerful too, we have the password, use it. dun live life like a begger, we are rich in God's blessing, live them out.

i juz dunno wat to type, in my head now is wow...i am speechless.

feeling not so good now..haiz..
getting results on 16 March, seriously my confidence in passing with flying colors is like zero.
I feel tat i'll be so disappointed in myself aft getting my results, its as if i never really did my best in studying for the exams, i juz couldn't remb anything when i entered the exams hall. ahhh!! watever..

irritated!! i can so slap someone left right center..

on a brighter note celebrated Candy's Birthday today, Happy Birthday gal, dun think she'll be reading this though. Oh wells, we went Cafe Cartel at Marina Square and made a fool of ourselves there. I shall never step foot in that Cafe Cartel. Aft that we went Bowling, i was so not on form today, my performance was disappointing. We went Esplanade to take fotos (trust me we took alot alot alot..)

ok i shall not carry on anymore or i'll start scolding ppl on my blog which is not very good.

My holidays have started, but why don't i feel happy aww man..
where have my carefree days gone??

Who Am I?? I am uniquely made by God. My tag says made in heaven.

all this while the negative things i feel or think has taken its toll on me..than on tues as i was at home by myself, i listened to draw me close and really prayed to God to draw me back to him. I guess in my very sinful nature i want to feel loved and the busy schedule i had, added to the amt of stress i feel.. Den i realised i forgot the basic of my spiritual life, taking care of my walk God. yea..i shld go east coast and haf a retreat with God at the jetty. i feel most relaxed there.. many other things i want to share but i can't pen them down here..

WE ARE PRECIOUS TO GOD!!

will anybody ever understand how amelia feels?
the only source of comfort at home i have other than God is my dog..
I want to be loved, i noe i am by God, but how abt the people closest to me, my family??
Sometimes i just dun feel like going home, the words that will come is when are u going to work? they never ask is everything ok? how's school? are u coping well?
Tired, just so tired of studying..deep within me i just want to quit school..
maintaining contact with my secondary school frens is tiring, dun they feel my sincerity in wanting to meet them, all i get is their cold reply..mayb u guys shld organize an outing and i'll give u the same respond.
I need a friend who'll juz ask me out to east coast, cycling and enjoying the sea breeze together and just talking about anything under the sky..
a voice screaming in my heart: I miss the carefree life i once had..



Hanging out with Ruth, ah li, jess, david and BK ytd really brought back much memories, and how much i really miss them..

the real me?? who am i really?
the meaning of life? what's the true meaning of it?
Love? really what is it all about?
true friends? how do you know if they are your true friends?
friends are easy to find, but who among them are your true friends?

One last report to go and this semester's projects will be done..yea..this is now the last week of school for me. den it'll be one week of study break and it'll be examinations!! wow..this semester went by so fast. Can't wait for the exams to be over sia..I want to be stressfree...

somehow i kinda miss North D peeps.. the ppl who kinda grew up with me..hahahaha!!

A little encouragement goes a long way.
Given at the right time it can lift a person up.


I was so nervous ytd while doing sound, i've never felt so nervous before..guess it was pretty obvious tat i was nervous as i was not as crazy as i'm normally am..hahahaha!! yep..
oh wells, yay!! had cg today, it feels so good to be there today. yeah!! refreshed, God teach me to be more aware and to listen more..

When was the last time u praised someone??

i seem quieter now as compared to last time..hahaha!! dun talk as much le..hmmmmm....

oh well i enjoyed serving backstage today very much, juz loving love teaching backstage sound to the new ppl in the sound ministry, i find it a joy to teach wat i noe and wat am passionate abt to them. guys ask more qns!! i may not be able to ans all of them but i'll try..

one thing i really learn about this week is loving God with all my heart and being aware of my feelings, with the many projects and presenatation and the many things happening at home, i really found myself to be very tired, moody and really just sick of wat's going on around me, during wam vision's nite as i was alone in backstage listening to Jasmine's teaching wat she said really hit me alot, feelings can be our best fren and it can be our worse enemy, we haf to be aware of our feelings. And the next day as i did my QT the verse about loving God with all our heart juz hit me, and i realised i seemed to haf forgotten my first love.

really thank God for teaching me all these , and of reminding me tat he's there all the time waiting to intervene when we call for him..

as i was going home ytd i listened to this song, and was reminded how God watches u even as changes/obstacles come, waiting to come in and see us thru those obstacles and changes,and how he renew us when we're tired, his reconstruction works in us.

Every evening sky, an invitation
To trace the patterned stars
And early in July, a celebration
For freedom that is ours
And I notice You
In children's games
In those who watch them from the shade
Every drop of sun is full of fun and wonder
You are summer

And even when the trees have just surrendered
To the harvest time
Forfeiting their leaves in late September
And sending us inside
Still I notice You when change begins
And I am braced for colder winds
I will offer thanks for what has been and what's to come
You are autumn

And everything in time and under heaven
Finally falls asleep
Wrapped in blankets white, all creation
Shivers underneath
And still I notice you
When branches crack
And in my breath on frosted glass
Even now in death, You open doors for life to enter
You are winter

And everything that’s new has bravely surfaced
Teaching us to breathe
What was frozen through is newly purposed
Turning all things green
So it is with You
And how You make me new
With every season's change
And so it will be
As You are re-creating me
Summer, autumn, winter, spring

am sooooo happy now!!!*jumps around like some mad girl* hehe..yay!! daddy is coming home tmr!! i can't contain my joy..hehe..lalalalalala..

despite the business and all the crazy stuff going around me i seem to be happy..not only because daddy is coming home, but also because i know God is with me all the way!!

let me share my joy with everyone, Daddy is coming on home friday, yay!! rejoice with amelia!! hahaha!! super high now..hehe..

neways school's been busy with many projects coming up..so irritating, so now currently i have a proj due next week and 2 proj due the week aft..i see many sleepless nights coming up. oh well exams is coming up in like about a month, and it'll be my long awaited semestral break.

Did backstage today for 2nd svc today, think i was really blur today, and i guess i kinda didn't mix too well today, what matters most today was at least i learn from my mistakes and i realise the style for doing backstage is now different from last time. I shall improve to be better at backstage and at FOH, aim to be a professional soundman that's my goal..

Carrot, Egg or Coffee?


A young woman went to her mother and told her about her life and howthings were so hard for her. She did not know how she was going to make it and wanted to give up. She was tired of figuring and struggling. It seemed as one problem was solved, a new one arose.Her mother took her to the kitchen. She filled three pots with water and placed each on a high fire. Soon the pots came to boil. In the first she placed carrots, in the second she placed eggs, and in the last she placed ground coffee beans. She let them sit and boil,without saying a word.In about twenty minutes she turned off the burners. She fished the carrots out and placed them in a bowl. She pulled the eggs out and placed them in a bowl. Then she ladled the coffee out and placed it in a bowl. Turning to her daughter, she asked, "Tell me what you see.""Carrots, eggs, and coffee," she replied.Her mother brought her closer and asked her to feel the carrots. She did and noted that they were soft. The mother then asked the daughter to take an egg and break it. After pulling off the shell, she observed the hard boiled egg. Finally, the mother asked the daughter to sip the coffee. The daughter smiled as she tasted its rich aroma.The daughter then asked, "What does it mean, mother?"Her mother explained that each of these objects had faced the same adversity ... boiling water. Each reacted differently. The carrot went in strong, hard, and unrelenting. However, after being subjected to the boiling water, it softened and became weak. The egg had been fragile. Its thin outer shell had protected its liquid interior, but after sitting through the boiling water, its inside became hardened.The ground coffee beans were unique, however. After they were in the boiling water, they had changed the water."Which are you?" she asked her daughter. "When adversity knocks on your door, how do you respond? Are you a carrot, an egg or a coffeebean?"Think of this: Which am I?Am I the carrot that seems strong, but with pain and adversity do I wilt and become soft and lose my strength?Am I the egg that starts with a malleable heart, but changes with theheat? Did I have a fluid spirit, but after a death, a breakup, afinancial hardship or some other trial, have I become hardened and stiff? Does my shell look the same, but on the inside am I bitter andtough with a stiff spirit and hardened heart?Or am I like the coffee bean? The bean actually changes the hot water,the very circumstance that brings the pain. When the water gets hot,it releases the fragrance and flavor. If you are like the bean, when things are at their worst, you get better and change the situation around you.When the hour is the darkest and trials are their greatest, do you elevate yourself to another level? How do you handle adversity? Are you a carrot, an egg or a coffee bean?May you have enough happiness to make you sweet, and enough hope tomake you happy.The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything;they just make the most of everything that comes along their way. Thebrightest future will always be based on a forgotten past; you can'tgo forward in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches.
It's easier to build a child than repair an adult.

2005 has been a great year. a year where i've learnt many things, like going to NT survey(somehow it feels like i din go for it in 2005 but in 2004), going for the class really enlightened me alot in many aspects yea, really thank god for tat.
2005 also had been a year of transition, many changes happened like changing from North D to North F and from NF to YWAM, transition from secondary school to poly. Changing from sec sch to poly is really different at first couldn't get use to it, thank God i found some great frens in my class, but the sad thing is we're gonna be split up in year 2..due diff specialisation.
really want to thank God for various ppl in my life, Zing, Ruth, Pris, HuiLi, Joanne, Weiling, Susi, Royston, they've really made a great impact in my life whether if its in a direct or indirect way. I thank God for the peeps in YWAM too, i feel so blessed to be serving God with u guys and gals.

yay!! i changed my blogskin..hahahaha!! was so bored of the old one..so i tot i tried sth new..oh well am quite happy with tis one..

went church office ytd to watch some videos, loved it very much, shld watch more man!! yea!
learnt many things from the videos..

met up with the ywam gals on tues at TCC had a great time of sharing and getting to know one another. and hearing how each want to grow in their ministry. really had a great time with them.
lets meet up more often!

i don't know why am feeling this way
i shld be happy, but somehow there's fear in me
will it all the same as last time?
will i treat u the same
or will i be different
will i be able to forget the past?
will u be different?
will u change back to ur old self?
will i feel awkward being in ur presence?
will i love u the same?
how is everything going to fit in place
am i too used to not having u around
tat am not use to having u around?

questions questions and questions